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Al Anon cont. to help me in life. So much of it comes natural now.
AH is still in prison, I filed for divorce the end of January. Have done all the paper work and not the court date is April 29,10. Feels great. For me it was the best thing to wait to be ready to do all this.
I have no emotion for him at all. No longer grieve the wonderful man he was. In reality I was blessed to be married to him during the only time in his life when he was sober on program. I was treated the best anyone could dream of! He was too! (o:
Now my life is "normal" as it can be living on five acres with these animals. Been retired from animal rescue for a couple years now, I just have a few. One horse, Elgin, a llama and his one tall sheep, Pammy. I think the cougar got the other one sheep.
A few chickens, 7 pot bellied pigs, 3 being very wobbley and old! a turkey, an amazon parrot. Too many darn cats....just saw another one I do not know in the barn....another to alter...9 dogs six are little, a turtle and one HUGE 150 pound sulcatta tortoise, Fred, who goes outside now and comes when I call him! That is him, my avatar, watching tv...
Slipped on something wet at Walmart, fell onto a bench, have a torn rotator cuff... great. Anyhow after the MRI I stuck my hand in my purse to get my brush...there was a chicken egg in there and I squished it! ehhhhh! I have some strange banty girls who run in the house to lay their eggs!!
Awhile back, on a very wet day in Oregon, the ground was super muddy and outside my side door, my horse will stand waiting for the door to open. I stupidly started feeing him treats from there.Anyway so you can imagine the "muck" right there.
Well on that dark muddy day I got up. took a shower, put a new nightgown on planning to just relax and clean some, then go back to bed. I wake at 4am sometimes. I went out to check Elgin, slipped on the steps and landed right in the muck! gross. I layed there to see if I was broken, the thought came to me. "Well this is country life!"
The world seems to be getting crabbier and crabbier, also it seems like not many are doing their job. Not calling back, not taking care of what you thought they did when ya got them all the paperwork or whatever. Al Anon taught me how to have serenity through it all. HP keeps me sane thru the " YES, NO, RETURN TO MENU, and when you clear your throat they think ya said pay my bill, or when the rooster crows, or dog barks ya get sent to the Philipines or India etc..."
(o: Anyone had rotator cuff surgery????Please share if you have.
There is life beyond living with an A. Such a serene life, healthy, no drama. I know I forgot how nice it is to live without an insane person.....
azUJIHV <--------that was two boucing fluffy dogs jumping on me so happy for me to see them....
So life at Eden cont. to give me great joy, and health. HP likes to hang out here too!
I do board others animals here too. What a concept, getting paid to have animals here! (o:
Well the Banty is clucking to get in.....yes I am still a slave to these guys.
Love,debilyn
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"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."
Debilyn: Just stuff to deal with! Are you laughing yet? I know that I have to laugh at some stuff so I won't cry! It sounds like you are having lots of trouble because of your rotator cup or is it cuff? It also sounds like you keep stepping in "stuff" & such! I stepped on a dead cat once! It was dark & a bunch of people laughed. I don't know if I ever really got over it! I can't believe it sometimes--poor cat! Keep smiling & laughing, too! Life is funny sometimes. Kathleen
Someone always inspires us with what they have created wow!
Katy
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Al Anon cont. to help me in life. So much of it comes natural now.
AH is still in prison, I filed for divorce the end of January. Have done all the paper work and not the court date is April 29,10. Feels great. For me it was the best thing to wait to be ready to do all this.
I have no emotion for him at all. No longer grieve the wonderful man he was. In reality I was blessed to be married to him during the only time in his life when he was sober on program. I was treated the best anyone could dream of! He was too! (o:
Now my life is "normal" as it can be living on five acres with these animals. Been retired from animal rescue for a couple years now, I just have a few. One horse, Elgin, a llama and his one tall sheep, Pammy. I think the cougar got the other one sheep.
A few chickens, 7 pot bellied pigs, 3 being very wobbley and old! a turkey, an amazon parrot. Too many darn cats....just saw another one I do not know in the barn....another to alter...9 dogs six are little, a turtle and one HUGE 150 pound sulcatta tortoise, Fred, who goes outside now and comes when I call him! That is him, my avatar, watching tv...
Slipped on something wet at Walmart, fell onto a bench, have a torn rotator cuff... great. Anyhow after the MRI I stuck my hand in my purse to get my brush...there was a chicken egg in there and I squished it! ehhhhh! I have some strange banty girls who run in the house to lay their eggs!!
Awhile back, on a very wet day in Oregon, the ground was super muddy and outside my side door, my horse will stand waiting for the door to open. I stupidly started feeing him treats from there.Anyway so you can imagine the "muck" right there.
Well on that dark muddy day I got up. took a shower, put a new nightgown on planning to just relax and clean some, then go back to bed. I wake at 4am sometimes. I went out to check Elgin, slipped on the steps and landed right in the muck! gross. I layed there to see if I was broken, the thought came to me. "Well this is country life!"
The world seems to be getting crabbier and crabbier, also it seems like not many are doing their job. Not calling back, not taking care of what you thought they did when ya got them all the paperwork or whatever. Al Anon taught me how to have serenity through it all. HP keeps me sane thru the " YES, NO, RETURN TO MENU, and when you clear your throat they think ya said pay my bill, or when the rooster crows, or dog barks ya get sent to the Philipines or India etc..."
(o: Anyone had rotator cuff surgery????Please share if you have.
There is life beyond living with an A. Such a serene life, healthy, no drama. I know I forgot how nice it is to live without an insane person.....
azUJIHV <--------that was two boucing fluffy dogs jumping on me so happy for me to see them....
So life at Eden cont. to give me great joy, and health. HP likes to hang out here too!
I do board others animals here too. What a concept, getting paid to have animals here! (o:
Well the Banty is clucking to get in.....yes I am still a slave to these guys.
I made a decision to forgive my soon to be ex AH's debt to me. Just does not matter. I was asking $100 a month spousal support. Believe me it is a drop in the bucket. But the idiot disease chose to fight it. sheesh.
So anyhoo I dropped it, sent him the papers to sign. Soon as they get back and they go to the judge, less than 30 days, I am no longer married to him. NO court stuff if I do this.
When I am divorced I go back to widow status as far as my first husband who died. So I get a huge chunk out of my house taxes. (veteran benefit)
Anyway I swear, there is this one tiny black chicken with a red head who is basicall YELLING at the front door until ya let her in! So I put her in the laundry room, set her on this feather pillow in there, then she lays her egg! I open the door and she hops out! Weird huh?
Now my life is not perfect, however I really look at the good stuff as best I can. Depression can hit me and I am opposite as I usually am. Some of you know that.
Doing best to remind myself one day at a time as far as,"how the heck am I going to get thru having one arm, left one, being in pain, can't take any pain med as it makes me sick and depressed....and 8 dogs sleep in my bed. Well actually that is me sleeping in their bed isn't it?
love,deb
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."
Oh goodness Deb, I was wondering where you were. I LOVE your stories! hey, want some peacocks? I have probably a 100 here in the neighborhood and they drive me NUTS. Beautiful but noisy and destructive.
Glad to hear you still have the tortoise and be careful feeding the horse so close to the house, I have seen them eat the siding off. The egg in the purse is priceless!!! I only have 2 dogs, 2 cats, fish and LOTS of peacocks. So not many funny stories. The cat came in tonight, it is an outside cat, and when he is in he celebrates. We find him in the weirdest places. He loves to get into boxes, up on the of the armoire, things like that. I am laying on the bed talking on the phone and the cat and the dog both have to be touching me.
That is love. 8 dogs in bed . . . that is a LOT of love.
Good to see you back Deb. Take care of that shoulder.
tlc
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