The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Gratitude for me at the moment in turn has given me the power to let it begin with me. For me that means I can share my experience and strength that I have gained through praticing al-anon slogans, trusting and sharing at meetings with friends/sponsor in my every day life which in fact is rewarding for everyone.
I have been fearful since I moved from my town of birth in Glasgow where I had lived all of my life to Edinburgh before christmas with my daughter. That fear am now starting to turn into love with my acceptance of my parents being who they are. My parents have never really been able to give me emotional support as they do not have the tools to do so. This week I again let it begin with me after a short period of isolation and feeling self pity of my non emotional supportive parents.
I called mom and dad and had a lovely chat with my mum as always sharing all our news which made me smile because my mom is doing great looking after herself. Mom has ms which is progressive in nature and she's asking for help from all angles due to me letting go of my over responsible nature. What a blessing as the changes I have made in my attitudes seem to be unconsciously rubbing off. Also I asked to speak with dad which wasn't something that we ever did in the past, this I now see was because the invite wasn't there for that. Now I can invite and dad can ask me myself how am doing instead of asking mom. This to me is a revelation and I feel a big gap has been filled as I hear my dad has a voice and a interesting one at that and he does and always has wanted the best for me )
These attitudes have also spread out into work with me being in a brand new workplace in a new city. Again I have put to use let it begin with me. I can now see I am slowly letting go of my perfection/expectations and learning to accept other peoples flaws as well as mine. Some anxiety is there at times though this I guess is due to changing way I work. Another blessing of change.
It's been a tough journey past few months and I'm so glad again that I have had the chance to really work the al-anon program due to the big change in city/job/life that I have decided to make.
Bless you all and thank you for your support on here as I have not been posting for a while though I have been reading which I gain so much from.
Thanks it's good to finally feel the peace and my higher power again
Edinburgh is a beautiful city of green nature where I find a lot of my peace too.
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Courage is the discovery that you may not win, and trying when you know you can lose.
((((chezza))))) What a great share! Thank you for the reminders as well. It is wonderful that you have made so many changes that are working for you and your daughter. Keep up the great work. Keep coming back and share with us, please.
Chezza, thankyou for your post, I think it reminds me that there are so many destinations for the journey we take, I used to look forward to my end destination wondering where that would be, but now I am happy to just come along for the ride, and enjoy the mystery tour!
Aloha Cheeza...These are daily lessons for me also. If I dont practice both and more as a part of my daily life I do find my self sitting in a handbasket just out side the doors of hell. Thank you HP and Thank you Al-Anon. (((((hug)))))
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