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So I went to an amazing seminar this weekend that is supposed to "change lives". I got ALOT out of it and I FEEL great, but there is a part of me still wrapped up in the obsession and abandonment I felt in my relationship. It is a complicated one, that's for sure. Today I just feel that familiar tug of depression and emptiness.
Something as silly as changing a Facebook status, had my stomach wrapped up in knots and the heavy cloud of helplessness and hopelessness and feeling of being alone came down upon me.
We have still been speaking. I've been feeling alot of pain about how quickly he has moved into his new "home" and how he refers to it as that. I have never known a home without him since I moved to Florida. People keep asking me if I am going to go back up North now that we are no longer together. The finality of it all is really piercing. I did not have any intention to do that.
My stomach is just undulating this morning. I'm trying to put into practice all the things I learned from my seminar but, the "Addiction" of the dysfunction and crazy ways in which I react bothers me.
go easy on yourself runnerchick and take each day as it comes. all these changes are very new to you and it takes a while to get accustomed to them. open your mind to your HP and let the whole process of your recovery begin. you deserve it. you are special, unique. work your programme and reap the benefits of your family on this forum. be kind to yourself and allow yourself to let go of your obsession. (((((hugs)))))) gilly
My stomach is just undulating this morning. I'm trying to put into practice all the things I learned from my seminar but, the "Addiction" of the dysfunction and crazy ways in which I react bothers me.
Thanks for letting me share.
Hi Runner That seminar sounds like it was a great way to spend the weekend. I am sure you picked up a great many tips to improve your thinking and way of living.
Please remember that life and change is a process. It is not magical and nothing works overnight. I believe it took a long time for me to become this sick and it will take some time for me to get better.
The more tools we can use the better. Keep on using your tools, and do not forget meetings, sharing and Steps They will help to get you to a place of light , serenity and courage.
Thanks for being here.
-- Edited by hotrod on Tuesday 16th of March 2010 08:32:35 PM
