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I think I am finally getting to the point where I can say I am ok by myself. I really don't have time for a man and maybe I have made it this way on purpose because I know it's what I really need. My biggest focus right now is dealing with the situation with my oldest daughter and the daily chaos she creates. I'm a horrible mother (according to her) but I'm only human and I just can't take any more abuse from her.
I am working, still going to school full time and 20% of the way to my master's degree (after this weekend). I am taking a trip out of town with friends next weekend for st. paddy's day celebrations and I have found a cheap sitter for my kids who I hope will work out and be reliable. Every day things change and you just never know what's around the corner. I'm trying to be more optimistic about love and what's in store for me rather than feeling like something is missing I'm trying to feel like something is coming. Patience is so hard for me. I am doing great on my lent diet (gave up carbs and staying under 20 a day). I have lost some more weight although it has slowed down this week. I am excited about what the future holds for me. I wish I could keep this positive feeling every day.
Glad to hear you are "Looking Up"... Always good to hear, I too am going thru alot of things i Must somehow learn to get use to, have years, and some decades of doing things one way, and then learning another for me is not an "Over night" kinda thing... It is a constant awareness of knowing what I want and how I am going to find a way to move in that direction...
You are doing so great... I wish I had your will power on the food thing, I have done it several times, but about the time I get comfortable I get in trouble, I know I have to make a LIFE time Committment to my health, I guess I'm just not quite sure I'm ready for that... But I am baby steppin it...
I can't say as I no how it is with more then one kid & on my own, but I do know what it was like for my mom to souly raise 3 kids on her VERY Own... So you are doing Great...Glad to hear you are Keeping with your School... Always love to hear of those that dont give up and keep charging...
We all have hurdles and from were I'm sitting... Your doing Great... Keep Coming Back...
You go, girl!!! ¨.... rather than feeling like something is missing I'm trying to feel like something is coming.¨ You're doing great, keep up the positive thinking. And have fun on your trip next week!
