Hello nikkilou,

I can relate to feelings of not feeling like you fit in. ((((((((((((nikkilou)))))))))) It took me an entire year to find a sponsor. I do have some friends here who I email or talk to in pm (private message) Maybe you can reach out to someone here you feel comfortable with. You can click their name here on the message board and send them a private email message too. Or take a risk and ask someone in the chatroom to talk to you in pm. It is hard to fit into a room that can be so busy at times and have many conversations. There are other alanon chatrooms too but I am not sure of their names. I try to stick to one chatroom and get to know the people there. This message board has helped me so much over the past year, yet there are times when I do not come here for awhile. Living with alcoholism has so many ups and downs anyway that it helps me to stay focused on one site. I have seen people ask in the room about other chatsites for alanon and others have given them some information, so try that too. I am feeling down today for some reason and feel like I don't belong anywhere myself. That is why I decided to reply to your post. Just know that you are not alone in how you feel or in your life with an alcoholic. ((((((nikkilou)))))) your friend in recovery , cdb :)