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My Winter Slump is still in full swing, the snow outside is still at over a foot, the sun did try to come out a couple times thru out the week, but there was to much to melt...
I started my Week off "Wonderfully", went to the Movies with some Girly's from our Home Group... BIG HELP... When we left we wanted to all go out to lunch however, when we got out of the movies, the snow was acomin Again... So we all headed in differant directions, and I had to go get my boy up on a Huge Snow Fallin Mountain, so that was scary but prayed up & back & made the trip... We Then treated ourselves to a Mommy & me Lunch which was Great...As the snow fell I Knew it would be OK... I knew that HP knew I needed it, felt him there behind the wheel
Tues... Kids home from school Again... (No School for like 12 days Straight) I Love my Son Dearly, but My Office work does not get as complete... So I am behind so bad...
Wens. & Today there has been 2hour delays which of course thro's off the rest of my day as well.. Just seems like everytime I get a New "Beginning" the bottom falls out...
"WHY" might you ask am I NOT Getting my Office work done now...lol... Well Tues. My Office Computer got a Virus...Computer Guy Got here Yesterday at 2... Left at 7:30, and here I sit Currantly Waiting on him to try something else... So I have been able to Get NOTHING done for a WEEK....And I'm Guessin this one is a Good one, cause its been 2 hours and no signs of improvement... Lord Help me....
HP if quite funny these days with his Awareness... I have a Dear friend that battles Depression, she has went for 'brain Shocks" and just been down a road harder them most I know... She to battles addictions on top, tryin to self medicate as many do...Well She has just been released from a PTSD Clinic and has lost 90lbs.... She has always been a Mother figure to me, so seeing her battle this has been heart wrench'n... Well... After speaking to her Tues. on the phone, She sounds so much better I was so happy for her, and she said she would surprize me one day with her new look ;)
The Husband took me out to lunch yesterday, and "I Missed HER!" But when I returned on my desk was a Note that says "I was Here..I Love you, here is a gift for you from me, from my finger to yours".... Well it was a "Large/Long" Turquiose ring...lol... Turquoise has always been my favorite color, & Stone, love the naturalness of it... Well tho the ring is SOOOO Not My Style, I have desided to "Wear It".. It is growin on me, and everytime I look down, I smile... Because I know that this ring, was a Gift from not only Her, But HP as well...(Or it my not fit...lol) A Good Reminder that I am loved, I am Blessed, & "This too Shall Pass, & Count My Blessing"...
Many of my Family, Even Extended Family No How I am with the winter... I don't make it a secret, and for the most part I am a happy person when the sun blesses me with its presents, but when I got on my "Office" computer today, and my day was headin back down that dark Hole!!! I got on my Personal computer and found an Email from my Uncle... (Dads Brother...(He Knows of My Issues w/winter as well) It said, "Winter Wonderland & Had a pic of my town on it"
So I Opened it, and it was a beautiful clip of all the buildings down town, and had beautiful Music behind it, and as I am feelin the Music & watchin the clips... A pic of my "Home F2F" building with Christmas Lights looking beautiful Pops up! A Beautiful, Strong Church... Looking Breathe Takin right before dark :) In that Moment, I knew that i had to let Go of my Winter Ale-ments, I knew that "I" Had to Change my Outlook at that moment, I had to "In My Mind" Make Winter Beautiful Again... & In that Thought... Yet Another Warm Feeling comes over me... So it Seems as tho As Long as I keep My "Awareness" horns on High, and My Serenity Close, I know I will get thru...
I have some Dear Friends at my F2F Meetings, and MIP... I have a Wonderful Support System and Tho We are to get "Yet another" big storm this coming Monday (I know it is out of my Control) So back to my Serenity Prayer... I'm goin to just be "Still" and see what awareness can help me regain, My Balance, Ease & Grace of my Serenity...
I know I need to get out of the house, and my even try that later today, and my Boy has plans with my Sister this weekend, so maybe a nice dinner would be good...
So If you could, Please "Keep Coming Back" Cause as ya'll can see.... "I STILL NEED YA'S" and am so grateful & blessed you are all here....
Holdin on for dear Life... One Day at a Time....Thanks for listenin
Jozie, You sound like you are doing great. I tell you I don't think I could handle all that snow like you are. I am very grateful that we had a no snow winter here.
Keep looking for those little gifts from HP they are all around us. It is just sometimes we are not looking at the right things or not looking at them in the right way.
You keep coming back too. You are needed and loved.
Yours in recovery, Mandy
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"We are not punished for our unforgiveness, we are punished by it" Jim Stovall
I hear you YIKES between the snow, school closings and a computer virus in your Business computer- you are holding up remarkably well!!!!
I loved the part about the "winter wonder land" email that you received and how just reflecting on the beauty of the scene, you were inspired to consider changing your atttitude. WOW great program. I was reminded of the slogan "Keep an Open MInd".
It was clear that because your mind was open you could SEE the VIDEO clearly and with wonder and then the part of the alanon welcome that says "Changed Attitudes will add recovery" KICKED in
Thank you for being here I need to hear your ESH
-- Edited by hotrod on Friday 19th of February 2010 12:03:08 AM
Gratefully...you only gotta do it one day at a time and then in little bites only. It got down to 67 this morning in Hilo and LOL...that's enough for Jerry F. If I was where you are I'd have to have more Jozie to be able to handle it. I don't like the kold anyhow it's spelled. Pray for the sun...Pray for the sun.
