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Mandy123


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Hi all,
I haven't posted for a while, but I have been lurking and replying to posts. :)

I am never cease to be amazed by how much my life has changed since I decided to take it back and truly focus on me.

My divorce from my "A" will be final on 03/02/10. I am anxious, nervous and a little sad.  Even though I made choices that led to the end of the marriage (asking him to leave and telling him if he was going to continue using drugs I didn't want to be married anymore) the end of the marriage is still sad.

But I know life continues on even without the active "A" in my life and I can remember a time when he was all I thought of and there was no life without him. Thank God I found al-anon and know that his being the center of my whole world was not the spot for him. Al-anon showed me that the tiny shift of focusing on me and still caring about him was what I needed to do. I also found that I am not one who can stay with an active addict. Al-anon taught me that some people can stay and some people can't, but I needed to do what was best for me.

I am having fun for the first time in a long time. Not because I coulnd't before, but I wouldn't allow myself to. I was too focused on what was happening at home or what he was or was not doing with the kids to enjoy myself.

I cannot believe I did this, but I got a tatto on Monday....ME!!! A TATTOO!!!! OMG! lol. This is something I always wanted to do, but we never had the money for and I was a little afraid to do. I went with a friend and had it done. I had three dolphins (lol for those who have known me for a long time could have guessed) jumping out of the water on my ankle. It hurt, but not as bad as I thought.

I joined a gym last week. I have a counselor at the gym and a trainer. I even saw a computer generated picture of me at my goal weight! I have been getting up early and going to the gym before work and eating way heathier than normal. This is a whole new level of self care for me. Monday morning I didn't want to get up out of bed, because it was a holiday and I just wanted to sleep in. I dared myself to prove to ME that I want to change AND I DID :).

Life continues to get better....one day at a time. I am living in today and just for today. I am flying down to California next month by myself and visiting a freind there. In April I am flying into Boston and meeting some MIP friends. Life is full and FUN!.

I can't imagine giving up on me again. I life this life too much.

Much love to you and yours.

Yours in recovery,
Mandy

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david62


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Wow!!!  A tattoo!!!  biggrin

So glad you are doing so well my friend!  You are an inspiration!

David

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Christy


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((((Mandy))))

You sound like a poster girl for recovery.  Go you!!!
Spread your story biggrin

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Festfan


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Thanks so much for the incredibly positive share!  Your words are very inspiring and it is so good to hear your progress!  Congrats on the continued focus on you!!

((((hugs))))

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White Rabbit


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Awww, yay! Good for you, Mandy! :)

And your tattoo sounds very cool!

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Sweet Stanley


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Good for you.  It sounds like your recovery is going well!! biggrin



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Tracy


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I have just returned from a meeting the topic was let it begin wth me.  Good for you for changing the things you can and for living your life how you wish to.
INSPERATION

thanks

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Maria123


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Boston can't wait to see you too ((((MyMandy)))). The conference is amazing. I wonder if you'll win the "furthest travel" this year biggrin.gif

Very excited!!!  party.gif

love ya,
Maria



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