The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I came across the following, which I wrote back in July 2008 [how time flies] and thought it worth posting again as I have kept it safe to happen upon it again someday.
That someday is today:
"Gratitude leads to humility - so I am told, and if that is the case then I need to make sure that my humility is TRUE humility and not FALSE humility. Being in control of my attitude means, for me at least, knowing what is in my mind and in my heart. However, I am also remembering that we feel as a result of the way we have learned.
If my learning is wrong, then my thinking may not always be right, and if my thinking is not always right then it is no wonder that what I am feeling may not always be the truth of the matter either. Gee, no wonder it is so hard to get it right all of the time."
Still striving today to get it right. It happens that I manage that more the further along this road of recovery that I travel. Each time I stop and examine my attitude and what I have learned - be it correct learning or not - I am more conscious today that I need to check that so that my truth can dawn and bring me to a wholesome perception of what is really going on in the situation that I am confronting each time that I feel wronged, hurt, sad, hopeless, wounded, challenged, negative.
Slowly too, those wrongs, hurts, sadnesses, hopelessness, wounds and challenges are turned into POSITIVE and TRUE HUMILITY that ensures that I rise up out of the pool of despond and confront the world with courage and joy and HOPE, not just for myself but for others too.
What a wonderful, wonderful dawning of restored health!
Take courage, you too will find that health too. Be honest, be searching and be HOPEFUL.
Suzannah
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
Thanks for the reminder that this program is based on the truth that we strive for "Progress NOT Perfection"
No matter how long I am in Program, I will always be an imperfect Human who will strive, one day at a time ,using alanon principles, to interact with the world with unconditional Love for myself and all.
Today's reading in THE COURAGE TO CHANGE said it all.
Our Friend Jerry F always reminds me that I am striving to be an Instrument of HPs uncondtional Love to everyone I encounter ODAT
Thanks for your share.
-- Edited by hotrod on Monday 15th of February 2010 02:40:00 PM
-- Edited by hotrod on Monday 15th of February 2010 02:40:41 PM
