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I learned alot of wonderful things & I hope that i can use them to help me move thru this step... I have been at it for a while now, so have decided that till I can get a date with my Sponsor I will pause... I do believe that is why its overwhelming me because even tho I wrote out my feelings I think I will do better having some of it released as I move on to the next section...
It amazes me how so open hearted the MIP Family of mine is, I have came here today deflated & yet you all have found a way to lift my spirits & give me hope...
We did get the snow they were calling for, and who knows how much more is on that way... I just Couldn't do it today... My Boy did Grandmas this morning to get it started, & my Husband finished not long ago... i am just drained, and exausted and can't seem to shake it...
I know i have to find something more possitive to do...In order to get out of this slump and I know I will pull thru but the process is being aggrivated by the weather around me, and keeping me indoors instead of out were I would much rather be... Currantly the Wind is insane so even gettin to the mail box is bitter cold...
So Call it lazy or Restless or what ever, but I'm doing all I can do for today... So far I cleared the porch of snow this morning, made it to the office, and woke up thinking possitive, but somewere in between that & now I find that the muscles still ache, my body is whooped (From being out of shape of course), and I am just tired...
So "Just for Today" I plan to do what work I have to in the office, go home make dinner, and curl up with a book in front of the fire... Now I guess I'll see what HP has planned.. :O) Doin My Best to go one moment at a time...
I needed all your HOPE, Strength & Love today, and it has made a differance, and for that I am grateful...I am printing to re-read thru out my evenning... So thank you ALL that took the time to Help Push me Thru...
I am kind of in the same boat...only I am stuck in the house with a bunch of bickering teenagers........sometimes I think being outside freezing might be better....
Hang in there the sun shall shine again....we will have some other kind of stress in our lives.....the good thing is it is life............even if just for today,,,,
Please, Please be gentle with yourself!!!This is a really rough winter and you, like most of us are burned out with cabin fever setting in.
The way you outlined your day certainly sounded as if it was going to be very busy. You do deserve to come home - eat a good meal and just relax in front of the fire, with that good book.
Christy, I loved the video "New Shoes"!!! In fact Jozie I purchased new Cowboy Purple Boots yesterday and like the song said They made me feel good. Maybe a shopping trip might be in order.
Hang in there and remember This Too Will Pass.
-- Edited by hotrod on Wednesday 10th of February 2010 07:26:21 PM