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TLC you are so sweet!!!! Thank you all for your loving support and prayers. My health is still on the better side of what it was but yes some symptoms have come back which I was well aware was a possibility but hoped that it would not. :( I did finally here back from my Doctor whom seems not to concerned yet and has told me to just keep a close eye on it and come right in if it worsens. My previous tests did come back negative and that is something to keep positive in my mind. The day that I got TLC's email was a really hard day and one of thoes which "keeping it together was hard" I was so upset and angry because I just got feeling better and don't want to be that sick again!!!
Yes I am so predictable any time I am going through too much I isolate it is dumb. My mom had kidney stones removed, their town flooded and they had people that lived right in town staying with them and mom was not well, dad was rushed in for emergency sergery his apendix burst it just never seems to end. I could go on with my brother and sister but this would end up really long!!!!
So I just get home and I have to leave Wednesday to take mom in for a day sergery and make it back home for my kids and 8 hours of driving to boot . Lots on my plate and when I think life might just slow down a bit it doesn't!!
I know that nothing more than I can handle will be brought to me. Just keeping up my program is challanging when no one around me understands just why I need to go to meeting or make thoes phone calls or do the 12 step calls. But thoes are the things that truely help me be sane.
So I have more I come home and they symptoms come back trying to hold that in from hubby and his friend and him are kind of land scaping our place... kind of! and the buddy of course shows up with beer and he is not supposed to be drinking and well hubby just gives me that grin and the F$#% you look. Grrr. So I am not sure if you can tell but I sure do need some alanon!!! Thank goodness it is meeting night tomorrow!!
Thanks so much for your support and prayers All of you!!!!
(((((((((((Hugs))))))))))) Are we related? Wow, your stress with family sounds similiar to me! I am not sure how much we are able to put up with. I am leaving with my parents wed. to stay with my mom/alzheimers while dad/congestive heart failure travels to Arizona! I have my health problems and so yesterday my hubby starts to get on my case about my weight and our marriage again! geez I don't know what I would do without my alanon program to keep me sane and going in the right direction either. It just shows how WE must come first jj. If we don't have our health, what do you have? I am still saying prayers for you. If you remember, I had the same bacteria you have a year ago but no to the extent it has hit your body. You do what you can to take care of you so you can be there for you kids. Thanks for being a support to me and I will continue to be a support to you :) We can both get through this and come out survivors! (((((((((((((((jj)))))))) keep us posted. cdb :)
I'm so glad you ar feeling better. :) Your whole ordeal must have been horrifying. I'm so happy your health is returning.
I've been through some crisis with my parents too and had to drive 100 miles day, it's not that far, but I did it every day for 3 mo. while my Mom was hospitalized from a massive stroke. On top of that, we had buried our daughter just 3 weeks before. It was a very hard time in my life. I came through it by the grace of HP.
Although you are feeling stressed, remember ODAT. Breaking everything down day by day and promising yourself not to be overwhelmed by tomorrow can be helpful. Find moments to be grateful for, especially with your parents. They won't be on this earth forever.
Looking back, I so wish that I had spent more time with my Mom back when she was the Mom I remembered. If you can, instead of thinking about how stressful it is, try to be grateful that HP is giving you this time with them and make the time matter. I promise you, you'll be glad you did. I believe we are to learn something from every situation that HP puts us in. For me, it was to be appreciative of the time I did have with my parents. While being so involved with my Mom, I wasn't allowed to cover my head and shut the world out because of my daughter's death (which is what I wanted to do). But everyday while I drove to and from the hospital HP allowed me that time to sort it all out alone in the car. Sometimes I would pull off the road and scream, literally. I sure couldn't have done that at home!!! They would have taken me away.
I know when all my stuff came crashing down, I at first was saying why me, why my daughter? Why now do I have to go through this with Mom? Me, me, me, me.....Alanon says "keep the focus on me"..but it means our goals, our happiness, our peace.
I didn't have Alanon in my life back then, but I found the road to peace anyway. It may have come a lot faster if I had the Alanon tools. One of the things I hated was that 2 hour drive everyday. It turned out to be my greatest blessing. Where else could get I get to hours of total "me time" to ponder my life and circumstances?
This too shall pass jj...and it does..to something you will look back on. My suggestion is to be sure that in the whirlwind of what's going on, you will be able to look back and smile about some blessing/lesson that was there. Keep your eyes open, you'll see it, or you may even create it yourself :).
I hope somewhere in my experience, you can find something helpful (besides the screaming part...lol)
Take a mental breather,
Take care,
Christy (Cjo)
-- Edited by Christy at 11:03, 2005-06-28
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