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Not2bforgot10


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I wanted to let everybody know that I will be moving from my home where I have lived the last 3 years... I am absolutely devastated.  A series of events have happened to where I have come to the conclusion that I cannot stay here.  Burlington, VT is too expensive for me with my student loans now taking effect.  My student loans are twice my rent! 

Anyway, my two options are to move to Philadelphia with my former partner (now my roommate) and live with her and her dad sharing a bedroom upstairs in the city, or to move back to Indiana with my alcoholic, abusive family.  I am so afraid...

I have posted on craiglist hoping that a 12-stepper might take me in under their wing... as part of tradition 12:  Service Work, for like $200.00 (That's ALL I can afford), but I have not heard back from anyone.

I really love Burlington, VT, as it has been a great place for me to heal, and to think about leaving it really tears me up... this was my first home... where I moved to and got away from all the drama and was able to gain some clarity and peace of mind.  Moreover, I found the rooms of recovery here.

I don't know if anyone else has ever felt this way?  ...where they'd felt really safe somewhere and then had to leave that safety behind?  I am grieving...

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Rita G


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HUGS to you,

Although I had to leave my home in order to HAVE safety and serenity - I can relate to the grief.

It was the house of my dreams - just not the circumstances.

I have been out of that house for over a year now and I still miss it. I don't miss the situation I was living in or my ex AH's active disease - but I do miss my beautiful home of my dreams.

Each room had something Recovery Oriented as part of the Decor' - Both my ex AH and I were in recovery at the time we got the house after Hurricane Rita and it was our plan to have a Recovery Marriage and Home.

But Cunning, Baffling and Powerful is the disease of alcoholism and addiction -

He relapsed and never could maintain sobriety again. I finally realized I would have to walk away to save myself, my safety and my sanity.

The rest is a long, painful, ugly story of the disease and it's behaviors. Bottom line, he got the house but I'm living Happy, Joyous and Free from Active Addiciton.

It is a healing process - allow yourself time to feel your feelings - It does get better - sometimes it is just a slow process.

HUGS,
Rita


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Debilyn


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Have you looked into maybe housing for students or whoever where you rent a room and share the kitchen and stuff to stay there?

Or rent just a bedroom in someones house with a private entrance?

I am so sorry, yet I know from experience when something I think is so awful happens, something better is next.

YES I know what you mean. I love where I live. I am one of those homebody people. Whatever you decide, I hope you can make it "home" for yourself.

love,debilyn

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nmike


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I love the stories about recovery and trying to better ourselves. The journey is painful. I need to move and also change jobs. I have been here for twenty-two years. My AHSober and I raised our three sons here. I set a goal of staying for five years to maintain the home that they were raised in. It is now five years. I make motions towards going through things. It is sad and difficult. I would like to be free like Rita G. to live in recovery away from the disease.

In support,
Nancy

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