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As Most that know me, no that in the summers we have a place down at the river we go...Well being by the river it is indeed in a "Flood Zone" and we normally pull all things out by the end of Sept, but this year, My Husband used our camper to stay in while he hunted...
I'm sure you see where this is leading... :( Any How... Two Days ago, we had started to get a good bit of rain, quickly in the State Our Camper Sits... Our Camp sits on a small hill, and the water has to get up to 18' in order to get to it... Well... Long-Short... The Water Peaked this morning at 18'5.4 inches...
Now this happened one other time, but we were able to get the camper out, this time the water came up so fast that the road to get there you can't cross at 14'...
I promise I have a point... :O)
BEFORE Al-Anon, I remember the Fear, the Worry, the Alser I got doing all these things when I sat by my computer and watched the Water Gauge go up higher & Higher, and faster and I remember the feelings of just shear "Helplessness" and "Dispare" that I felt over my Control in what was happening before me eyes...
NOW- After Being "Al-Anon'd"...lol... I came home last night from the market, and before bed I looked at the gauges, they said "then" around 16'... I remember getting up from my computer, and the 1st thought was! (Grate me the Serenity to Except the things I can not Change).. I went to bed, handed over ALL my Will for the Day, and accually managed to sleep pretty good...
I got up this mornin & when I first got up it was at 18'5" and I thought, It Is what it is, and out of my control... Now Granted it isn't a "Fansy" camper or nothing, but it was what we had... It was a roof over our head, and place to sleep out of the weather, but I'm not really that upset, its kinda confussing really...
I don't know if it is because I know, that Regardless of what happens, I'm still here, my family is safe, and life goes on... Or If it is because I know that from this experience I have learned a great lesson, and there is better things to come... Or if this is what it feels like to just Live within "Exceptance"
I am Lovin the Calm, I'm OK... My Sister calls me this mornin, because her's is there as well.. And she is a MESS... Cry'n for hours, didn't sleep last night, got up this morning "Didn't tell her Man Happy Birthday as she is heading out the door for work!" and she is STILL Cryin... "And She was Billy-A@@ in School, and I was the Emotional MESS...
So... Do I see Change in Habits, YEPPERZ, Do I see Change in Health, Yeppers No more Alsers :O) And Who know that Growth could feel this good...
Now i know that even if the water Touched the Underside of my camper, the floor is Gone, and I'm Ok, I know that HP will give me what i need to get my "Getaway" back to a "Doable" place for me, and I'm OK with that... I know that I will have work to do, to it will not at all be easy, and I"m OK with that... Sadly Enough I think it has motivated me enough that i am accually looking forward to the project at hand, weather Big or Small...
I guess when I got here a Little over a 1 ago, "Because of ME" was Attemping to Carry the Weight of the World on my Shoulders, you know, My "Alcoholic" Family, My Fathers Life and disease, my ABrothers "responsibilitys", My Baby Sisters College, and YES... EVEN Natural Disasters... Thats me... SUPER WOMEN...
I have to say that after todays lesson... It feels pretty good to hand my Cape over to HP, and see what its like to live on the side of His Will Instead of my own, and know that no matter, HP GOT THIS... Funny how things change from one dramatic moment till the next...
Thanks for letting me Share... And For Sharing with me :D Living Proof, It Works If You Work it :D I'm Goin to Keep Comin BACK!!!
Jozie - You have no idea how much I needed your share, right now and right here. Thank you for a wonderful story/share. (((((Hugs back at ya))))) !!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Great ESH. What I heard in yur share is that we can face problems with our old tools of, panic, anger, fear and tears or with the alanon tools of serenity, courage and wisdom.
Sooo Hubby went to Camp after waiting for the water to go down, he managed to get down in with the truck, but the ground is too soft to move it out yet, however...
Once he waited long enough, he went down and the Water was ALL BUT 10 Inches and the whole deal could have ended alot uglier... So... The Raging Waters Tickled the Steps, but Only thing lost was a couple Old Spools we used for Card Tables, and a Plastic Table that was out... Everything else... Still in Tack...
I knew HP would hold my Hand and Get me thru, and Yet again... His Miricle, I just got to be apart of it...
There is ALOT of Clean up on the property due to debree & what not, but that is all do-able with a little hard work, and half the stuff will be Wonderful for Late night Bon Fires, so it will all work out... I want to thank all for the Cheers... Lord Knows I Love THem All...
Without this Program & the People in it, It would be rough, I consider you all to be a True Blessing In My LIfe... Thanks for Teaching/Leading to a place of such "Relief" from what was once nothing more then Dispare...
you're living proof it works if you work it