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I NEED A HUG!!! i have been doing so well....but today i feel like throwing the towel in and returning to AH....i know i shouldn't for my sake as much as his. My IBS symptoms have presented themselves again (presumably due to the stress and the cold weather) and i feel lousy...weak....useless. i am tucked up in bed with my hot water bottle and medication but this has caused me to wonder what my life is really going to be like alone. for all his faults, AH did used to take real good care of me when i was sick. my dog is a poor substitute although she is laying quietly by my side. i know in my own mind that he looked after me so well during times of ill health because he felt in control. it would be the wrong message to give to him to ask for his help right now.....but oh!.....i would love to be wrapped up, cozy and warm, being fussed over by him right now :(
(((((((Lucy))))))) Big hugs to you! You have been doing great, I've been inspired, and comforted by your posts and sometimes downright awed at the progress you've been making. I think this is just a temporary setback. It's so easy tošslideša little when we aren't feeling well physically. Hang in there, this too shall pass. I hope you feel better soon.
Please know you are not alone. Glad you have the Meds and are able to rest. I am so impressed with your creativity so just let your mind create a beautiful poem or story and drift off to sleep.
That wonderful dog cheers me up each time I see her here.
<<<<<HUGS>>>>> to you and may you feel better real soon! Your dog is absolutely beautiful and is giving you hugs by being beside you.
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
who said only the alcoholic can have euphoric recall. I know for me the mourning of the relationship I thought I had with the ex A went along with what I did have. Of course it wans't 100% black and terrible till his disease progressed. I know whenever I want someone to share the bills and help me with my dogs I am reminded of what it was like at the end and how I cannot go there again.
I am sorry you are ill. I hope you will feel better soon.
(((((((((((hugs))))))))))) and more where those came from. I hope you start to feel better after a little snooze. I am so happy you have a dog to keep you company they are so good at that aren't they? To just give love and expect nothing in return except maybe some kibble and a chewie bone. Feel better soon and take care of yourself.
(((((Lucy))))) In case ya can't feel it that is a BIGGGGG hug coming to ya from MD!
You're not alone at all. My exAH was the BEST caretaker when I was sick! It used to amaze me how kind he could be to me when I was sick and he wasn't beating the daylights outta me-lol!
I read somewhere (no idea where as I am an avid reader) that when you are missing the A or the relationship to think back to the last times you were together, and remember that those times, at the very end, are as good as things could possibly be again. For me, that held true.
Take what you like and leave the rest. It's perfectly ok to feel needy and want someone to share with when we are sick. I've been dealing with that the last 5-6 months steadily but I learned quickly to lean on my AlAnon family...
love and hugs,
shelly
ps-LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE the Lab and wouldn't trade mine for any man out there! He keeps me warm, is loyal beyond belief when I am sick and loves me unconditionally. You have it all in that dog Lucy!!!:)
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