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-Not a good night. -Empty feeling in the pit of my stomach. -Watching it all fall apart.
I can't / don't want to discuss it right now. But, I guess you've all been there before.
After not much sleep, I took my 20 minute drive to the MARC station to go to work. Waited around 15 minutes and got an announcement that the trains would not be running due to a breakdown. We were told to find another means of transportation. 3-4 hours of sleep and then this on top of it was just too much for me. I called the boss and he told me to go home and get some sleep. -I am blessed to have such a considerate boss.
I will be meeting with my wife's "Out Patient Treatment" counselor, Wednesday night. My wife was supposed to set it up for last week, but it never materialized. (I wanted to speak to him about the "on line" pharmacy calls and the check she stole and forged the week before.)
In light of a recent development, I don't even want to speak to him at this point, but my mother-in-law called today and asked me to go, so I am going. (Everyone in her family is extremely concerned for her.)
Charlie: I know a lot about sleepless nights. Lately I have been sleeping pretty well though. I guess I am finally turning over things that usually bother me & keep me up at night.
God & I have a better relationship too. He is my friend who I talk to when I can't sleep! Take good care of you!
Aloha Charlie...at first no matter what we do it still feels toxic but we become hopeful in the things that we do for our own sanity because they worked for others also and then the program starts to work and become a natural part of our lives whether the alcoholic is still...whatever. Don't be afraid. If you do continue to reach out for love and support here and in the meeting rooms. Some stuff you will need to do even though you are tired and doubtful still while you have a Power Greater than yourself nearby. Trust your HP and the program because this is what works for most, most of the time.
The Serenity Prayer is a good thing , for me Ihave added a few words which I quietly repeat in my head , it may help you too
God Grant me the serenity ( stay calm ) to accept the things I cannot change (them ) or him or her . The courage to change the things I can ( me ) and the wisdom to know the difference .
Speaking only for my situation, when all is chaos and I get sucked in or wrapped up I struggle to sleep often. I do spend quite a bit of time talking to God, reading and praying.
<<<<Hugs to you>>>>
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
