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Strange where the message comes from. Yesterday I was watching The Joy of Painting on OPB with Bob Ross. He paints with 2 - 4 inch brushes and quickly. Has a very happy different outlook - at least different from mine. He was talking about painting clouds in his picture and he said " Put them where ever you want - it is your world and you have all the power" I thought how true is that? I have the power in my world. I can sit around and think about what another person and give away the power of my day, or I can hit another alanon meeting, I can get up on the wi and do some exercises. I can take this time to take care of the things I need to do around the house or take a little extra time fixing my self up with a manicure who knows. Could it be cause maybe some of those extra things around the house I dont' want to do so I put my focus on someone else cause it is easier to fix them up than to look at the things I can do for me.
I know I am powerless over alot of situations although I still have to remind myself. It is a good feeling to focus on the power I have and head into action.
I have wasted a lot of days thinking of the past times in fantasy mode. I have the power to change my world, and I think that would be a whole lot more rewarding. Take my power back, paint my own picture. I started to go there this morning and thought, keep your thoughts to I - I - I, me - me - me, instead of he he he or she she she and you will have a better day.
Thanks for hearing me out, putting these thoughts down really helps me,
I have the power in my world. I can sit around and think about what another person and give away the power of my day, or I can hit another alanon meeting, I can get up on the wi and do some exercises. I can take this time to take care of the things I need to do around the house or take a little extra time fixing my self up with a manicure who knows. Could it be cause maybe some of those extra things around the house I dont' want to do so I put my focus on someone else cause it is easier to fix them up than to look at the things I can do for me.
Wow Fishinmama that was truly insighful and brillent .
Your process, in discovering your possible hidden motive is awesome.!!!
I underlined and bolded that part of your share. I discovered that My destructive attempts to fix others was also motivated by my thoguths that I DID NOT WANT to work on me It was too hard and it was easier (Ithought) to try to fix them.
funny where we get our inspiration, knowledge and strength from isn't it? yours from a painting programme (i love bob ross but cant get it here anymore) mine from a sign on the back of a toilet door! as long as we are receptive to these things we will continue to nuture ourselves and grow. we are all special, unique. each of us is in charge of our own destinys and we owe it to ourselves to make our own lives as happy, settled and fulfilling as we can.
