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I got sometime to practice step one yesterday...My son got a DUI. Both of my kids are keeping the court system busy and causing choas to swirl. He came in and apologized to me yesterday. I said I am sorry too...I am sorry you have to drag your self through this and cause yourself all this trouble. I told him it makes me feel bad that he has to go through all of this. I left it at that. The powerlessness over the situation left me nothing else to say.
Me, I am really busy trying to figure out what all these sounds are going around me. The most common sounds are new to me. My computer makes noise, the toilet flussing ( it keeps me on my toes...still asking myself what is that noise. Sunday I was talking to the kids and had to think what is that noise it was the diswasher...I use to feel it to see if it was running. This is such a miracle truely a miracle. I had to practice some tough love on the dog. He likes to sleep on my rug in my bedroom...he has been kicked out of the bedroom at night...He snores to loud...I never new LOL I can't tell you how many times a day I think "What is that noise" What a blessing I am so into discovering this whole new world I have that I can not focus on anything else. Did I say HP is good? My whole world has changed although it is quite noisey :)
Isn't it soooo good that the center of your focus is on your new sounds and not the results of your childrens personal choices. YAY!!! Fishin...from one deaf person to a recovering deaf person good for you!! The dog snoring...LOL that keeps my spouse up but not me but I'd just love to hear it a time or two because our's is a small miniture black poodle mix named Chloe. When they need me to hear they touch me. Hearing aid still and some recovery. It's all acceptable. Stay with your recovery and listen to the laughs from inside the rooms of Al-Anon. ((((hugs)))))
I love your posts about recovering your hearing and reacting to the new sounds. It is amazing what we all take for granted sometimes! Reminds me of when I got glasses for the first time ( a LONG time ago) - I remember thinking, "OMG, the trees have leaves!". Same thoughts when I got contacts - I had forgotten what peripheral (sp) vision was like!
But you have a great message - first; about not taking things for granted and finding happiness and blessings in the small stuff. and Second, about focusing on things that make YOU happy or serene as a method of blocking the chaos.
