The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Just got a call from the county jail, seems my daughter got in a wreck last night. I didn't get all the details as only the first minute was free. Then I was prompted to enter my debit card to buy more talking time.
Could it be....Some Alanon prompting???? I thought why should I pay for this? If she is in jail, it is because she did something wrong...The truth is I can't go get her...no driving priviliges..She said she is sore and put her car in a ditch, Thank hp no one was hurt badly... ok maybe some thinking time is in order for her then ..I went to bed last night and didn't go out why should I get wound up and then spend money I don't have. I hung up the phone. I love her but at 25 she can figure out how to handle this situation.
The truth is gang the information from the doctor yesterday confirmed what I already knew The infection in my brain is worse. If there was ever a time I need to take care of myself it is now.
I get to get out tonight to go to the church concert. I fixed up a ride and a few of us are meeting for dinnner before. This is precious to me. These walls start closing in on me around here. I am going to go have some fun.
Wow! I can not believe the peace I feel. The knowledge that I have a choice to enter into the choas or not. I think I will choose to take care of myself - and to feel good about it, I can gently give her to her higher power to guide her.
Aloha Mama...Allowing yourself to be blessed is a good recovery decision. You are right also in that this is your daughters learning time...What is and has she learned? Only one thing is how to be responsible to and for herself. Have a good dinner and concert and a very Merry Christmas. (((((hugs)))))
You made my day. You did exactly what you are suppose to do. By taking care of yourself first you kept your serenity, and you did the best thing you could have done for your daughter. You are letting her suffer the hardships of her own decisions without any interference from you.
Your not a fishinmama.........Your a "supermama"
Enjoy the concert, Merry Christmas and continue to take care of your self first.
As the mother of an addicted adult son I understand the stress a child can cause.
Thankful that there are no injuries, you are on your way to taken care of yourself and that is such a load off our shoulders when we realize we don't have to carry it all by ourselves, put the responsibility on the only one that can do anything about the situation.
Oh, good for you!! That sounds like a very healthy reaction - carefully thought out and not impulsive, and based in reality. Thank you for sharing - reading this reinforces what I have learned to be true...Al Anon works!!
