The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Sitting up is not the most comfortable right now so I will keep this brief and touch back later.
The surgery experience from start to finish was a nightmare-which included waking up on the OR table, being dressed in someone else's underclothing, and coming home with bruises that can't be explained.
The nightmares since have been non-stop. I "should" (I know a bad word) have trusted my gut and canceled.......something kept nagging at me, worrying me, and I didn't trust my instinct-I should have.
Recovery has been slow and rough, and the withdrawl from the meds begins next. My emotions are all over the place and the lack of sleep from the night mares is catching up quickly.
I wanted to stop and Thank you, each of you for the comments and the PM's. It means more than you know and throughout this nightmare I have found the family that I have always wanted.
I am taking it a day at a time, and trying to just be.
love, peace and blessings, shelly
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Put down the magnifying glass and pick up the mirror!
Thanks for the update. You are still in my prayers, wishing you a quick recovery. We have missed your ESH. Hang in there, it's one day at a time. Everyday will be better. Keep your head up and stay positive, HP will have you back to the old Shelly in no time.
I'm sorry this has been such a struggle. I know I tend to look for perfection. I hav to make do with what is. I'm beginning to love mediocrity. I hope you will heal and come back soon as your contribution is incredible.
