The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I was not going to go to my meeting last night as I sat in my recliner with snuggly pjs on in front of my Christmas tree. I hate to go back out when I get home from work but this has been a very trying week for me with the A son and a lot of other things. I thought to myself...how can I keep tring to urge my son to go to meetings when I find it so hard to go myself sometimes. That got me right up out of the chair and back into my clothes. I think my hubby was happy to see this action as he hates when I sit and dwell on things and just want to sleep to escape. I really knew that I needed to share at this meeting but I new I wasn't going to be able to do it without crying. I usually sit and listen and when the meeting is over I get up and leave right away. I introduced myself as quickly as I could before I chickened out and just let it all out. It wasn't really about the A son but it was about me and how I have never truly given myself to the program. I told them that I never had a sponser, never worked the steps, never made friends and went out to coffee with anyone. I guess I just always felt like I really didn't belong. I realize that I have to make Alanon and myself number one. I need other Aloners in my daily life. They understand exactly what I am going through more than anyone else does.
I want to get more involved. I want to get phone numbers. I want to start doing service work. I want to get a sponser and I want to work the steps. I want to be surrounded by people who understand what it is like to love an A.
I WANT TO BE HAPPY EVEN IF THE SITUATION WITH MY SON NEVER GETS BETTER.
Great share. I am glad you did get to the meeting and had the courage to share.
Meetings , sponser, readings, gratitude lists are still the back bone of my program . The world feels safer and I feel more centered when I include alanon meetings in my weekly schedule
I am glad you went. Please keep coming here as well. I find this an important part of my recovery as well
O K Gailey!!! Let's goooo! I'm in support of you saving your life and a member of the World-wide fellowship of the Al-Anon Family Groups. You found my own list of things to do to get well and you got the go to meetings done; Go to the ones you want to and the ones you don't want to. What's next...the rest of the list as very soon as you can get to them. (((((hugs)))))
