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I knew this program was going to change my life...and I knew that it was going to change me...but wow last night I didn't even recognize myself.
Earlier last week a couple girls I work with asked if I wanted to go out Saturday night. I said thanks but no thanks. One of them just wouldn't let it go she asked me why and she in one conversation knocked down every single excuse I had.
So I got dressed up to go out to this club in clothes that I had bought a while ago, but have always been to insecure to wear. They were the only "going to a club" type clothes I had.
We got to the club and I was hanging with people who were drinking...and I WASN'T uncomfortable. I have learned in the rooms of alanon that it isn't the alcohol that is bad. I had a few myself....which would explain the next part.
They were trying all night to get me onto the dance floor...I told them repeatedly that I CAN"T dance...It ISN"T me...I have no sense of rythm...I have no grove thing.....none. The same girl who knocked down all my excuse about not going DRAGGED me onto the floor. And you know what I CAN dance.
I had so much fun. I was just dancing away. Not caring what anyone thought or how I looked or letting the insecurities take over.
I even made a friend. This guy and I had quite a few umm...hot dances. Nothing serious just fun. And I totally HAVE a groove thing and he LIKED IT. lol
I was a mom in my 20's I never went out and clubed with the girls. So this was totally new to me. And I am a little shocked that I liked it.
I never would have felt free enough to just let loose if it wasn't for this program. I was able to not think about my hub. I was able to let myself have fun. By working on me and starting to accept that I deserve to have fun I had more fun than I have had in a long time.
So next month they want to go karaoke. Now I CAN'T sing, but that isn't going to stop me!
I am going where I have never gone before and I am not afraid of the changes..because all these new experiences are going to help me find out who Mandy really is, what she likes, what she doesn't like, and so much more.
Rock on !
Yours in recovery, Mandy
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"We are not punished for our unforgiveness, we are punished by it" Jim Stovall
You deserve to have a good time. Good for you. Stretching ourselves is all part of the process. You will find things that you don't like, too, but thats all a part of it.
You go girl!
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
