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Well This weekend will be that of another Al-anon/ACOA "Newness" for me :o) I am Goin to a Convention... :) My 1st... And who knows.. Maybe some of you will be there as well :0)
I'm accually gettin butterfly's in my belly over this..lol.. i know sounds silly, but I have my son off at a sitter for the weekend, My Husband off hunting for the weekend, and an entire weekend to just "BE"... I am sure most of the butterfly's are from my nerves and doing something "Out of the Box" from my everyday, I had struggled with anxiouty for a LONG time now, and it mostly has to do with "Doin something Differant", wants I face it, I can only then enjoy it, till then, My Stomach remains in a Huge knot!!!
I have been prayin to HP to give me the strength to get in as much time as I can, without worry or reservation, and wilthout worry of what the rest of my family is needing or not needing at this point or that one.. :) The Cody in my feels like I am Losing control, when really... I will (I know) Gain so much from it in the long run...
So why am I so nervous... Why can't my excitement just be that I am "Doin Something for ME", and not that I am goin to be around a Room/Rooms Full of Strangers, what do I have to be imbarrassed of ? Why am I so worried about fitting in when it is nothing more then People/Humans Just like me... hummmm
I know that HP will see me thru, but still can't shake the gitters...I think if there was a room full of chocolate covered peanuts, I would just go there till time to leave :)
So lookin for some thoughts and insight on what some of you may have went thru at your 1st Convenstion? Meeting? Al-Anon/ACOA Event ?
Maybe it will lighten up this tight stomach of mine so I can at least enjoy the fact that I made that step... :)
Aloha Jozie...For me its about the shakiness of change. Difference without awareness a head of time and so you get to take some of the other members here experience with you. You will be with family you have never met before in a completely loving atmosphere and completely on your own as to what choices you make during the convention...what meetings to attend on what subject and would you participate in rooms larger than you home or local group. You get to keep and open mind while you hear Experiences, Strengths and hopes from many different "walkers" and you get to network with them and get their programs also. I haven't been to a convention for 3 - 4 years and have gone to some really spiritually powerful ones in the past. I know I will again HP willing.
Have some fun and get more tools and they even have large Saturday Night dances where no one is drunk and there isn't a bottle in the whole place.
I am so glad you are going to the convention. You will be with family and surrounded by program thoughts and ideas.
There will be many, many meetings going on for you to attend. Great meals and a huge Saturday night party/dance. You will get to know so many people from around the country and discover how good it is to be out interacting with differnt people.
I am glad your son will be with a sitter and hubby is going hunting. You will be free to focus on yourself and recharge.
Every one I have attended has exceeded my wildest expectations.... so many positives come out of them, not the least of which is the reassuring feeling that we truly are not alone in this...
Have a great time Tom
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