The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Step One was easy for me. I had hit my bottom very hard!!! In all aspects of it! My whole family had been pulling me in a million different directions. I was miserable and spinning out of control.
I was at a complete loss as to what I should be doing and didn't really care about anything which was horible as I have 2 children that need my love and full attention!!!
I was told about Alanon and called our local # and felt I had no options for help as I am a stay at home mom and had no way of getting away from the home. I am grateful that I found MIP and learned from the others ESH on this board. My HP was deffinately looking out for me that day I did a google search for alanon and found this room. It has truely saved my life and restored me to some sanity.
I did not take me long to let go and truely see that I was powerless and that my life was unmanageable.
I am now at a good place with not much anger and the weight I was some how lugging around is gone!! what a relief!!!
I work my program do reaserch and try to understand myself and what I need and have seen that not only did the disease take over my life but my children as well. In my recovery I have seen progress in myself and in my children.
I was deffinately sicker than the alcoholic in my life. Now I go to F2F meetings and know that I CAN go and my AH amazingly supports it but the first 3 months were done here on this board and in the chat room.
I am sooooo grateful that I found MIP!! The serenity prayer and the 3C's.
Step One forme was the start of a journey through the Steps that gave me my life back.
When I went to my first Al-Anon meeting I thought no way was I powerless but I felt better when I left. So I went back. I got a sponsor and called her everyday.
When I started talking about the a she asked me what had I done so far that day - were my dishes done - was my bed made? I was too busy feeling sorry for myself and trying to figure our what more I could do to change the a.
So she told me to do one job and call her. Doing one job at a time one day at a time helped me stop obsessing about the a and begin to hear what my sponsor said and what others shared at meetings.
Our literature tells us when we get busy we get better.
For me, it worked. I began to take my eyes off the a and take better care of myself. I realized that all the things I had done for many years had not changed the drinking it had only made me crazy. So I stopped.
It takes time but if you put the slogans to work to help you GET that first Step you'll realize you feel better.
One day at a time if I remember to put First things first and Think before I speak - using Easy does it - I get better.
