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After yesterday's insanity at the office, I went home, grabbed my Yummers and he and I headed up to the trail for a hike. I ALWAYS can find peace there, as I feel MUCH closer to my HP when I am outside in His world, looking first hand at what He can do. He and I chatted, (me always more than Him-lol) and I asked him for strength to continue living my life one day at a time, and to stay by me and remind me that I am POWERLESS. Went home, ate to much of all the wrong stuff and fell asleep by 8pm.
Woke up refreshed, and determined that I was going to work with an attitude of gratitude and finding a way to be in it and not of it.(I am after all the FunFairy there-lol) To my surprise my son, who is not at all outgoing with his emotions or feelings, greats me with a huge hug and an I love you mom before breakfast! WOW!!
While driving to work I saw the most breathtakingly, amazing red sky. I wanted to just stop in the road and stare at it forever. Decided to take the long way to work and got stuck at a SUPER long traffic light that usually irritates the he!! outta me. This time the light held a perfect view of the skyline and as I was overwelmed with the AWE of it, I realized that my HP was showing me first hand that He has all the power and I have NONE........I am truly 100% powerless over all of this life stuff, and living here and now is all I can really do. I cried and laughed and drove to work-relieved and stress free.
Several hours into my day I received a call from family telling me that a little 11 year old school friend of my son's was killed in a head on accident last night and so was his mother. I'm sitting here worried sick about my son right now, who is in school and probally started out his morning with this news of his friend. How I wish I could be there, but I can't. But I find strength in knowing that my H/P, my God, is with him and with this boys family right now.
All of these events really helped me put my life and my situations into perspective. I am lucky and blessed and job or no job I have a son, and family and friends who love me and I am blessed to have them in my life.
I plan on going home tonight and hugging my son a whole lot tighter:) thanks for being here for me yesterday and alway my MIP family Shelly
-- Edited by shellyj123 on Thursday 22nd of October 2009 10:13:36 AM
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Put down the magnifying glass and pick up the mirror!
I work with people who are dying, people who have given people they love a deadly disease and forgive and go on with life and that ALWAYS helps put everything into perspective for me!!!
