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It has been a while since I have logged in as I have lost internet connection at my home. I am currently going through a divorce. It truly is the hardest thing I have ever been through in my life even harder than active alcoholism with him. I am having trouble letting go. I feel like my world is falling apart and I just want to shut down. I have done some things that I am not proud of and not like myself during this time. I am soul searching to find Me. To find My Happiness...but how do I let go of the love I feel for him? He has made it clear we missed our chance, but I still feel the connection and still have the feelings. Is it enabling? Is it the co-dependency? Any advice? Suggestions?
brightmommy
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I am so sorry you are in this pain and am glad you have regained access to the internet so you can post. Meetings, Living ODAT and Praying will help get you thru this very, very difficult time. I found working on detachment each moment did help me to continue to care for the alcoholic but to also take care of myself.
Please keep coming back and let us know how you are doing.
Hi, I got divorced nearly 6 years ago and felt just as you do now. This is normal when we have been really close to someone we do miss them when thy go. I can see now that it was for my good my ex partners addiction was hurting me and the children. today we have a good life and I wouldnt go back for anything. At times like this I take extra care of me read my al anon literature that always changes my thinking to a more positive out look. I attend a couple of meetings a week then I dont feel so alone. This site has also hlped me to cope with my pain and all the change, plus I have the most amazing sponsor
thank you both! I am going to have to set boundaries and work on detaching at this point. I share a child with him so for the health of our lil girl I must move past the resentment and anger I feel inside for him. I have to let go. and step into the reality that he is not who I want him to be and does not want to be with me any longer. I do want to reach a point to be able to look at him and see only the good qualities he has instead of seeing all the bad the hurt and pain. Higher power is in control now and I am reading the lit on a daily basis!!!
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