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" God grant me the serenity To accept the things I cannot change Courage to change the things I can And the wisdom to know the difference. "
The more I say this prayer the more I find myself reaching out for it and living it. It feels like it is beginning to really soak in through every pore in my body and for me, this is an absolute revelation.
Never did I think that when I first came across this prayer that I would really live it in my life. Today though, I feel I have managed to obtain that serenity through and through. Today, NOTHING has drawn me out of that serenity. Today I feel for the first time that I am TRULY LIVING that prayer.
Nothing has changed in my circumstances. Nothing has changed in the way I live. Nothing has changed in that my family are any nearer or have shown any care, love or understanding. My twin sister has not picked up the telephone, written or shown that she wants to share her life with me, my one and only Aunt has not been in touch or responded to any of my letters or phone calls, my own children might as well be thousands of miles away not just hundreds of miles away on the south coast. My health is still rubbish and the authorities are as bureaucratic as they always have been BUT I still I feel a serenity that I cannot explain or stop wondering at.
How I HAVE COME TO THAT PLACE OF TOTAL PEACE WHERE NOTHING MATTERS THAT WOULD OTHERWISE HAVE MADE ME ANXIOUS I cannot tell, nor can I be sure when it happened, however I know I am there, and it has happened.
I feel, for the first time, that the serenity is a part of me, deeply and wholly and unshakably. I feel calm. I feel quite. I feel confident. All I can do is breathe gently in and let out a sigh of total acceptance in pure gratitude.
And I like it.
Oh, the wonderment of it all; I am smiling.
Suzannah
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
I am so happy that you have finally gotten to feel it. Isn't it wonderful? Immerse yourself in it and savor it. It comes and goes, but once you have felt it, you will crave it again and again. That is what the program is all about. it is what we are working for. Peace, Serenity, a kind of harmony with life.
Love in recovery,
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
How I HAVE COME TO THAT PLACE OF TOTAL PEACE WHERE NOTHING MATTERS THAT WOULD OTHERWISE HAVE MADE ME ANXIOUS I cannot tell, nor can I be sure when it happened, however I know I am there, and it has happened.
I feel, for the first time, that the serenity is a part of me, deeply and wholly and unshakably. I feel calm. I feel quite. I feel confident. All I can do is breathe gently in and let out a sigh of total acceptance in pure gratitude.
Dear Suzannah - Oh how I pray I can get to that total point - I see progress, but I also see lots to go yet! Many icky things going on in my life - Mostly people attacking me in some way - Today I was so depressed - Time to work step three and think of things that are good in my life! Thank you for showing that working the program works if we work it!
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!