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I've been pretty proud of myself lately. I've been dealing with a lot of stressful stuff and haven't needed to take a Xanax in almost a month. Every day and every night I would thank God in my prayers for giving me strength.
My husband left for the pain management facility in Tucson on Saturday for a 4-day evaluation. I cannot tell you how much I was looking forward to him being away so I could have a break from him.
But now it seems like my anxiety is creeping back in and yesterday I ended up having to take 2 Xanax. yesterday I took my son to a kids expo. It was somewhat of a far drive from our house and I thought that maybe I should take a Xanax before we left (for the long ride and for the crowds). I talked myself out of it, but asked God to let me know if I needed to take one. Sure enough, during the drive, I started feeling panicky because I was out of my element, so I took 2. I ended up feeling better after a little while and my son a had a fun time at the expo (he got to meet Scooby Doo and Sponge Bob). I'm glad I was able to take him there, but I'm mad at myself for having to take the medication - I thought I was doing such a good job keeping my anxiety under control - I thought I was becoming a stronger person. I really hate these setbacks.
What in the world makes you believe this is a setback??
Anxiety is physical u no. Not like you ask for it! NO ones body is perfect. Life is hard, no wonder you need them once in awhile.
You were doing fine, you still are. Please give yourself credit! Be good to you.
I used to beat myself up for getting migraines. I felt guilty, as it robs my life when I get them.
Have not had one in a long time, more than a month. Now I accept it, take my meds and do what I can.
Geez lady you took your kiddo to something special even though it was out of your element!
I used to suffer from anxiety horribly, my son does too. we both have xanax around just in case. We only have to take a .25 or half of one!
caffiene, sugar, nicotine, alcohol and more can trigger anxiety.
I learned I forget to breath when I am anxious or sad. So I take my service dog or one of them with me on times I need them in my shopping Kart. I just put my car disability sticker on my cart! lol
So lady pat yourself on the back for me and I invite you to stop the negative talk in your pretty head. love love love,debilyn
For me... Well I too have kicked the Anxiety meds, I still have them readily available at any giving moment, I think more as a safety blanket then anything... I haven't takin one in over almost 2 months now, and have been doing really well with it...
I think For ME, I have been giving my faith to God, and allowing him to take my anxiety, things that use to throw me over the edge like "Confortations with AFamily members, Large Crawds drive me nuts, None Stop Schedule, Stressful day at work, some how something just Changed... I ask God to help me everyday, make it to the next, and make my Anxity/Nervousness subside, and let pride/Strength to over my Fears of being in such places...
For ME it works.. I can't say it will for all...When I was weining myself, I would only carry (1) pill with me, there for, I was not temped to take more then that, and I would not depend on the effects of more then that... But again... Just me ;)
You have alot going on, and I will keep you in my prayers that things begin to work there way out... I read a Quote today that said "The Ripples of my Day are a Reminder to Go Within" Auther Unknown... I like that... Makes perfect sense to me for that Ripple is usually the Anxiety that I am tryin to over come, and I know now that in goin with in ME, I can cancel that fear... And hand it to HP... ;) That made the start of this beautiful Fall Day... All Make sense :) Hope it helps...
Thanks to both of you for your supportive words. I know I need to stop beating myself up - I'm doing the best I can with what I have right now and that's all that should matter.
