The first night no sugar was hard. I cannot even imagine someone quitting smoking and or using.

My mood has been great though. Today was not hard at all.

Had a feeling and drove up and saw my AH. He told me he had been so depressed for a few days. So that is what I felt. I feel him when he is not using. When he uses, I have no connection.

We had a very nice time. Was easy to talk, I was not nervous at all. He told me more than once now he feels like he can go out and exercise tonight.  (o:   Guess I am good for something!

I am sooo happy to have finally spent time with him and it was so joyous. smile smile. I have missed him. He is on med  non narcotic for his migraine and anger thing. Says he feels sooo much better. NO more angery out of control feelings now.

I left feeling very happy and like I just ate sunshine!

Also made a serious goal today to accomplish. When my house loan is finished, I put the dog door in to their enclosed area, I am going to Lousiana to meet a friend
 Fact to face.

This is MAJOR for me. My young couple who have animals here would stay at my house. They pay a very low renting some property of mine. So they are happy to do it.
Mac, my son said NO mom you are no driving. So I am looking into flying or train. If I do a train I would have to get one of those sleeper ones. I hate to fly hate it.

Soooo more coming alive. Got a sewing machine cabinent and neat old chair. So back so sewing.

Looking into online classes to continue my degree at home.

Got my old clock off layaway at an antique store. It ticks real loud, pendilum swings and it bongs! Makes me feel like I am at gma and gpa Aharts house. smile.

I love to go to this big shop, smells like my g parents  home used to be.

Feels so nice to be happy and content.

hugs all,debilyn