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Some of you know I have had problems with depression for many years.. And have gone to the hospital for it as well.. The last couple of weeks I am back there.. I have talked to some in the room.. Ever shared about not being in a good place right now in meetings and in chat.. Friday i spoke to the doc and we are hopeing i will not have to go.. However for those of you who pray.. I am asking for it.. I am asking for your help in this.. I dont now what will happen.. And today I gave it to my HP to do what he feels needs to be done.. However I am very scared.. I dont know what the outcome will be.. I know some understand about this.. and some dont.. yet i have still got so much support for the chat room and even others not in there.. I need support from everyone right now.. Yes I am asking for yalls help.. Something I dont do very often cause its hard for me.. as it is for everyone.. Please help me in the hopes i do not end up with my biggest fear.. Which is to end up in the hospital and not have you all with me.. Thank you..
You got it! Sending out a big hug, a big prayer and all the support i can muster up. My favorite tool in fighting depression is gratitude lists, something as small as giving thanks for the strength to dust the table and how soft a loaf of bread feels can somehow make me feel so much better. Simple things, one step at a time, one day at a time.
tbp every time I go thru regular situational depression, and I think it is lasting too long, I feel that oh please don't let me go to that awful depression.
So I know where you are. I know you'er having to sit around is not helping at all. Exercise does help, even a tiny bit. Do you have any one to come over? Play board games?
I learned to accept the depression and do my best to keep doing things. Sorta the fake it until you make it.
Told myself it is ok to be down. It won't last forever, I will be ok.
It is hard I know tbp. It is not your fault your chemicals are out of wak. I know some people say snap out of it, you don't have it so bad etc. They are ignorant to the disease of depression. If we could snap out of it we would love to.
So yes will keep you in my prayers for sure. If you have to go get help at the hospital then ya do. It is an illness like any other. I hope you accept the help if you need it.
Hugs hon,debilyn
-- Edited by debilyn on Monday 7th of September 2009 10:38:08 AM
You do have my prayers. Depression doesn't have to kill us, continue reaching out for help. It's not something you've caused or created, it can be very inherent. I'm sure you know meds that had worked for us in the past can suddenly stop working for no reason at all. Keep working with your Dr. and get the right combination for you. See if you are eligible for talk therapy as well, it works wonders. We never have to be too proud to use every available resource.
And in the weekend to come, you should feel more as I make my Pilgrimage to Holy Island off the north east coast of England. [aka Lindisfarne - you can google Earth it to take a look - wonderful coastline too and lots of celtic history. Very special place.]
I will be lighting candles for you and all our dear MIP family at each stage of the journey.
Hold on tight. I know what depression is and after many years I can truly say that I am feeling tremendous healing as I
LET GO LET GOD.
Simple as that, however I kept on letting go and then grabbing my fears back, and it is only now that I can say I have truly learned the art of letting go and letting God.
May you find serenity in all that you do, feel and say.
Suzannah
-- Edited by Suzannah on Monday 7th of September 2009 09:25:23 AM
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
yes, prayers are on the way. I do know what depression is and feels like as I experienced it for many years... one of the things that I did that seemed to be extremely effective for me, on top of all the regular things u may try to force on yourself like excersize, eating well, sleeping enough - basic things that we sometimes neglect when we're under the cloud of depression - I went to 6 weeks of accupuncture - specifically for anxiety & depression and in that short amount of time, it helped me, I'm not sure if it was that alone or a combination of things I was doing. Hang in there & know that even though ur feelings are intense, they do pass and they cant kill you. Take good care of YOU, we love you.
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
thank you all so very much for your replys and you support in this.. I knew if there was one place i could come and get it.. It was here and am so glad to be able too.. Thank you so very much..
Some of you know I have had problems with depression for many years.. And have gone to the hospital for it as well.. The last couple of weeks I am back there.. I have talked to some in the room.. Ever shared about not being in a good place right now in meetings and in chat.. Friday i spoke to the doc and we are hopeing i will not have to go.. However for those of you who pray.. I am asking for it.. I am asking for your help in this.. I dont now what will happen.. And today I gave it to my HP to do what he feels needs to be done.. However I am very scared.. I dont know what the outcome will be.. I know some understand about this.. and some dont.. yet i have still got so much support for the chat room and even others not in there.. I need support from everyone right now.. Yes I am asking for yalls help.. Something I dont do very often cause its hard for me.. as it is for everyone.. Please help me in the hopes i do not end up with my biggest fear.. Which is to end up in the hospital and not have you all with me.. Thank you.. 
