The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I dont recall how I found this place, I was distraught and my life had become unmanagble, obviously my HP brought me here. The one thing I do remember clearly is the feeling I got from the welcome I received. The responses to my original posts where amazing, Thank You Jerry F, Maresie, Glad Lee, Suzannah and many more of you wonderful wonderful people. Its been a difficult year with many highs and lows, but I really do dread to think how it would of been without MIP and Alanon. Alanon has given me so much, I have learnt how to live my life regardless of what others are doing. I've learnt so much about myself and my behaviours and continue to do so. I've come along way and have been supported every step of the way by you all. I still struggle with my codependancy issues but have the awareness and the tools to change. I am able to help others but in a healthy way, I'm active in my f2f meetings and have recently been asked to lead my mother meeting on alternate weeks. Sometimes I struggle with my confidence and dont feel as wise as others, so it was a great boost to my confidence to be asked.
I thank my HP everyday for you all, I want you to know just how special you are to me.
Oh Girl!!! ....Happy Happy First Year...You did what was suggested and now you're all growing up. What a miracle...what an HP you have and the courage to follow up and then continue on...Just like my sponsor use to tell me aaaaallllll the time. You can't keep it unless you give it away and you won't know if it works unless someone else gets it.
Have we be splashing about in those murky, turbulent, stormy, becalmed, high seas for THAT LONG?
Guess what? I am still tacking alongside of you. That's me just south by south east of you...lost my sails, lost my oars, lost my rudder from time to time but hey, your tinkling bell rang out to me and I found a safe harbour to restore my boat and my soul and I always could see the lighthouse warning me of the dangers of sailing too close to the wind and those rocks.
Guess that is what you have found too. And guess what, you and me both have managed always to get back into a safe harbour to find companionship and caring and understanding and love and support and prayer when we were in need.
And guess what for a third time, it's because others have been messing about in the waters too that we have also managed to help others steer a safe passage through those uncertain waters into a safe harbour too. That's how the programme works.
Well, Mariner. I may have not been here as often. Just been doing so much outside of MIP too. That is testament to finding a life once more or at long last, just like you have.
Keep on keeping on and I am sure we will continue to steer our passage into calming waters whilst we have each other and this family to help us. And in the meantime, we too make a difference to others which is a great testamony to the power of Alanon, prayer, and ultimate faith in Letting go and Letting God with a little help from our special family.
Sending you ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((mariner)))))))))))))))))))))))))) and keeping you in my prayers as I go on my Pilgrimage to Lindisfarne [Holy Island] this coming weekend.
I shall say a prayer in each of the cathedrals we stop at and in the Chapel on Holy Island especially for you my dear. HAPPY HAPPY belated 1st BIRTHDAY.
God bless you and keep you in serenity and peace.
Suzannah
-- Edited by Suzannah on Monday 7th of September 2009 03:27:00 PM
__________________
Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
Mariner,
