Well, I`ll try to condense this. I use to attend Alanon meetings a couple years ago. My daughter has had a drug problem most of her life but I believe she has stopped using crack for about a year now or close to that. My issues are about her beautiful just 6 year old daughter. I love this child since the day she was born. I never thought my e. daughter would go back to using after she was born but when she turned 2 her behavior changed. I was naive.My daughter became very angry, mean and abusive to me and the little girl. It wasnt until about a year later did I find out what was going on. I went to a court and recieved temp custody of the child for almost a year.
She as many addicts are is a fantastic manipulator. She conned the judge to believe she was doing fabulous so she was granted custody back of her child. She did continue to use for awhile but seems to have stopped. She really has no recovery and has men in her life to take the place of drugs. After the last break up I have come to find out that she has been drinking now. I have her daughter constantly. Iam not well and even though its difficult for me I would rather her be with me than her mother because her mother has mood swings that can be horrible on the child. The child calls me her God. She has also told me quite a bit about how badly her mother makes her feel because she yells at her. I can NOT talk to my daughter at all. She is abusive towards me but my granduaghter did speak up today and asked her mother to please stop yelling at her. Sice this past week-end when I found out about the drinking she has said she would stop and start attending meetings. Well, I`ve only seen her attend one so far. I know she is very ill. Tonight when she starting telling me what to do I lost it and made a rude comment to her about since when are you a good mother? I feel terrible. I called her back and apologized for hurting her feelings but she is still not making this child as important as it should be. Instead of her coming home to get her at my house and take her home for a dinner at her house for a change and a bath at her house and ready for bed for the first day of school the next day, she is galavanting into the city to make a showing at a funeral for some thug`s father. She will be gone for hours. I guess I need to vent. I feel bad for hurting her feelings. Its very difficult for me to get to any meeting because of my health issues, what energy I have is put 100% into taking care of the child . I know alanon teaches us to care for ourselves but how could I ever abandon this child. Iam consider going to court again if she doesnt get better. Can anyone relate to any of this? Thanks for listening.

Roxy