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Ok want to share something with you all........I have been doing some thinking. Growing up in an a home most things were not condusive to growing up feeling reasured and loved. Always expecting the unexpected, the other shoe to drop as it were. I believe I continued that thinking into my adult life. Recently I have been going thru a big change in my life, some of it I did not look on too favorable, again with that other shoe. Well this am I was reading a share about a troup of jugglers, and the unexpected love another member found. And another experience I had at work, a coworker talking about wanting to suicide. To me opisite ends of the emotional spectrum. This made me think, why the differance?
I belive it was our outlook, I have always had a choice just never really knew it. I can choose to think my world is crap or take some action. The juggler story proved it. I am going to work on this in counceling.......letting go of the other shoe. We talked about this alot there. So today I am going to make some choices that will help that, may be a god, friends and a few horse shoes up my butt will help this feeling grow inside me.
I realized a year or two ago that I too had been waiting for the other shoe to drop (growing up acoa) being in a constant state of tension, stress & expecting the worst. I decided to simply let that way of being go, and elect to be calm, period. I was in a constant state of irritability (ready to react) like a pulled rubber band.
I can tell u choosing to be calm, content & grateful, allowed me to feel happy... something I hadnt just felt since I was a lil kid.
Thanks for shairng this & the reminder of choices ~ so true!
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
We often mention the other shoe dropping in life! I liked your slant on it! I hope you said what I think you said. Sometimes I just don't "get" it myself.
This post reminds me of what a dear friend told me once. We were discussing how our lives were going, what was happening etc. and I said "I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel". My friend replied...."If you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel then quit going into the darned tunnel". We had a good laugh over that one but I still got the message and try to remind myself of it as often as necessary.
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Everything I have ever let go of has claw marks all over it.
