The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Tomorrow morning I am getting my divorce from alcoholic husband. I have very many mixed feelings about this; sadness, relief, anger, justification, ambievalence, fear, apathy, a virtual cornacopia of emotions. I think my biggest struggle right now is with fear. Walking into that courtroom with my lawyer and facing that judge just terrifies me. Unfortunately this is not the first time I've had to do this. So why am I so scared? Is it just the reality that I'm having to do it again, or is there something that is making this divorce more difficult than the others? I guess each experience one has is different. I have been married 4 times. After tomorrow I will be divorced 4 times. All to alcoholics, or addicts of some kind. I am getting help for myself through the al-anon program. I am focusing on me now. I am reading a book by Robin Norwood that is entitled "Women Who Love Too Much." It explains me to a "T". I give to much of myself away to others and don't keep enough left behind for me. This is a wonderful journey I'm on ... discovering me. It's scary, it's exciting, it's invigorating, it's wonderful and it's my journey and for that I'm grateful.
Overcome
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I can Overcome all things through my HP who strengthens me.