The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
It isn't until we realize that we are NEVER alone, despite NOBODY being around that we can truly heal and overcome our circumstances, situations and start a new direction in our life.
I remember the days I felt so alone, but now looking back, I realize I wasn't alone, especially because my children were there--- Recently, I'm realizing how much I hadn't paid attention to who was really in my life, like my children because I was so consumed with so much unhappiness inside of me that I had expected my husband (ex husband now) to fulfill. It wasn't until I realized that I was looking in the wrong direction and to the wrong resource to fill that loneliness that my life changed.
It also wasn't until I realized that until I found peace within myself and love for myself, that I discovered that NO relationship would ever work-- business or personal.
What it ALL comes down to is the issues that we NEED to deal with within ourselves and no longer look to others around us as the reason for our loneliness. We have choices and ONLY WE have the ability to change our life in any situation. The question becomes then, How much are we willing to tolerate and continue to accept that prevents us from having a better life for ourselves.
I keep deleting, signing out or 'not sending' everything I have tried to send to you. My own fault..I didn't read the directions clearly!
I wrote my whole 'pity' full story for over an hour and then 'poof' ..lost it. Maybe you got it...maybe you didn't...maybe I was just supposed to write about my lonliness and then 'let it go'...that is how I will take it. If you did get it great...if you didn't...I'll be ok.
The tears I was shedding while I wrote the original are starting to dry up, probably because I am now dehydrated from all the tears!! :)
I am printing out your posting and will read it over and over tonite to remind myself ..'it's about me' and I like me and I like my own company....my higher power will help me become a better me and I will not be lonely while I am alone at this time of my life.
