More weeble than wobble... - Al-Anon Family Group

Suzannah · ~*Service Worker*~

More weeble than wobble...

Jen · ~*Service Worker*~

Oh honey, I sure do know how you feel. Sometimes it just not worth chewing through the restraints. But those are the days that we must just try hard to do something nice for ourselves. Can you do something like that? Try a long hot bath, a walk, something to help you ease into a better frame of mind.

Or for me sometimes I just have to go through the negatives and wear myself out with them. Then I can feel better after and move forward again. Sometimes i just don't have the strength to do anything but wallow in my misery for a bit.

But the sun always comes out again and I get up and continue on. I know you will too.

Love in recovery,

rtexas · ~*Service Worker*~

((((((((( Suzannah ))))))))

You are certainly in good company. Many of us have been right where you are, and you can weeble, wobble, yell, scream or whatever you need to do here. Its a safe place.

Are there meetings you can attend where you are? It can be very healing, very comforting.

Take care of you and keep coming back!

Suzannah · ~*Service Worker*~

Aww, thank you Jen. I am glad you are on the outside looking in and I "think" I believe you when you say I will come through this.

rtexas you know, here in England I am known as a "lone member" for I have no f2f meeting that I can get to. So I am a bit bereft of that luxury and that is why this family for me is even MORE special and people like you and Jen and many others who were around when I first came into this family almost two years ago are so important to me.

You see, you will be able to see if I have made progress and if so what progress I have made, for right now I cannot see that at all.

Sometimes I know it is the lack of personal contact and chit chat and a hug and a, "It will be okay, you'll see. We'll get through this together." that makes it so hard. I have been on my own now for twenty years now and it does NOT seem to get easier at times like this.

But then again, I was alone for the twenty years that I was married too, so what's new I ask myself? Gosh, shouldn't I have gotten past this for good by now?

[I have been going through some legal stuff that has done a lot of stirring up as well as the continued ill health and impending surgery but it still begs the question.]

I will be able to answer that in a more logical frame of mind but I just cannot answer that one right this minute.

Thank you both for your encouragement and love, and care.

Suz

Mandy123 · ~*Service Worker*~

Suzannah,
You may feel like you are in a weeble wobble right now, but we won't let you fall down. I really feel for you not being able to get to f2f. And good for you for reaching out when you know you need the help.

Of course we are going to listen when you come to us....we all know that it takes time to recovery and that recovery is a work in progress. I know I stumble over the same rocks over and over again and no matter how many times I stumble and then talk about it I am never told "You haven't gotten past that yet" or "Haven't you learned to reach out for help yet" :)

I am so with you on hating reaching out for help....I know that is why my HP allows me to go through situations in which I need to reach out. Hopefully I will learn some day.

Keep coming back.

Yours in recovery,
Mandy

Jozie · ~*Service Worker*~

((((((((((((((((((((((((SUZ))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I am holding you in my Prayers that you will get up and put YOU back on top of your own world... I know there are plenty of times to struggle, and I am one that is Wobbling a bit myself this week, but... I know that "This too will Pass", and I have to get up, Dust off, and Move on...

Lonely is a tough one for me, for at times I lonely I am quite content most times, but that may be that I am smothered by family at times and just want to be left alone... :)

Some times we just Need the Blues, to remind us that we are Human, and I have always believed that Our Struggles (Wobble / Weebles) are Gods way of showing us our strength... They say, He never gives us more then we can handle, just tests us to see how tough we are...

You are a Blessing to many here at MIP, and I am sure many others, you helped me a ton in the beginning of my Recovery, and I am forever grateful for that... You need a shoulder... you got one, You need a Friend You Got One... You just need to Cry and Scream .. Well You have that too... :)

You hang in there SUZ.. You will get the strength to carry on, after all you came Here and Let it All Out so to me that is PROOF you Want to feel better... Now All Ya got to do is take Girl... Its all you with a ton of MIP Support :) We still Love ya :)

Love & TONS Of Prayers for Peace, Patience, Strength, Love :)

Jozie....

Jerry F · ~*Service Worker*~

Suz you have come a long way and stumbling doesn't take away or dismiss the
miles you have already covered. Our recovery is about progress not perfection
as you already know and if we stay open to be reminded of old lessons we can
swallow a bit of crow and smirk, "I know, I forgot a bit."

I've been doing the male version of weebling and wobbling and my part in it is
to deny that I need to just slow up for a while, turn it over (HP hasn't left Hilo
yet) keep an open mind, work what I've learned and hunker down on the
fact that what I've learned here is the truth and works.

When my head has been weebling and all the old crazy actors along with some
new ones take the stage with their scripts I say to myself "it ain't real...it'll pass".
"It aint and it does" and so I can go on.   I'm in what I imagine is rough waters
for the moment, mind, body and emotions.   My spirit is still the Al-Anon Spirit so
it'll pass and I keep practicing what I've learned.

You don't have face to face meetings and even without those you've done great.
If Heartbreak shows up at the door, tell her you've rented out her room to more
happiness and joy.

(((((hugs))))) smile

-- Edited by Jerry F on Friday 14th of August 2009 12:39:44 AM

Rora · Senior Member

Thanks for coming here and sharing so honestly with us. smile

I too know how it feels to feel off a program, or though its been lost and way to hard to look for again. I get that, and lately, I feel the exact same.
Thanks for posting this so openly and reminding me (us) that we are normal.

Rora

Ness · ~*Service Worker*~

Suzannah I'm sorry you're struggling....

I don't know if it's available to you, or if you would even want it, but when things were blacker than black to me a friend recommended a massage may help with the physical pain I was having through carrying a lot of stuff 'inside'......I can't tell you how much better I felt...I didn't expect to, but I did.

I explained to the woman giving the massage that I knew my pain was caused by 'mental trauma' HUH..... and she was brilliant, full of understanding. She warned me that I may feel the need to cry during the massage and not to be embarrassed...let it go.

I did quietly sob as she worked her magic. That night I had the best nights sleep I'd had in ages (bonus!!)......I went once a week until my body pain was gone....but keep going back once a month for maintenance and it def helps the 'brain pain' too......

Thanks for sharing......keep coming back

((((((Hugs)))))).....Ness

shellyj123 · ~*Service Worker*~

((((Suzannah)))))

I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

We all weeble and wobble at times, and we find our way back here because HP leads us where we can find the hlp, compassion, love and support that He wants us to have to help us through.

I weeble and wobble all the time, to the point that I actually make myself nauseated-lol, and then it passes.

And remember.........THIS TOO SHALL PASS..... and you will regroup and move forward again....

love and peace
shelly

CAM0914 · Veteran Member

Suzannah,

One thing I heard in a meeting a long time ago was that feelings change. Wait a while, give it time, those awful feelings will change. Processing everything is important, but the feelings pass...I cry now and now I'll feel better afterward.

Thankfully, you know what is going on and YOU KNOW all his words were/are not personal. Its the disease talking, not him.

I didn't know this years ago and developed my own drinking problem. I was going to anyway, I just think it sped it up for me.

Anyway, I took it all personally fell to my bottom rapidly. I thought it was all my fault, but it wasn't. We are 2 individuals with this insideous disease that will tear EVERYTHING away from your being until you are a shell.

Good luck and keep coming back. It works if you work it.

Just my 2 cents. Sorry if i seem blunt but I try to keep it simple.

I get into trouble when I think too much :)

christine

-- Edited by CAM0914 on Friday 14th of August 2009 01:24:04 PM

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