Things have been so crazy this week that I haven't had much time to post.  Work is busy and after work is Soccer almost every night.  We get home late and I am beat.  Struggling to keep up with my daily readers too but trying my best and NOT beating myself up for a change.

My SIL and I have taken to walking for exercise while the boys practice which has really helped me alot physcially and emotionally, and I can feel a boost in my overall self esteem.

I'm about half afraid to say it outloud, but during the course of "dating" I've met someone and we've definitely "clicked" on some level.  He is a professional male, works 2 jobs, has two children, not an A (but he does drink on occassion).  SO FAR-he treats me and my son really well, is kind, attentive and caring, and affectionate.  We've been dating off and on for a little over a month, though there is no one on one commitment between us at this time-as he knows where I have been with EXABF and where I want to be in my program before I try that again.  He is very supportive and knows some of the history with EXABF but not a lot of my crazy making:)  Like I said I am very adamant about taking things SUPER slow and developing a friendship first and enjoying dating and getting to know one another.  He may walk away in time, if I don't move fast enough (I know that is a reality and have told him that) and I'm ok with that too.  I'm just enjoying the time we are sharing now for what it is, and for the first time in my life-not projecting WHAT IFS etc....It's just nice........It is what it is and I am doing the best I can with what I have right now.

I also reconnected with my "old" sponsor today and feel very blessed that she is back in my life.  She offered me such strength and direction in the past and I look forward to working with her again. 

I'm still struggling a bit with issues with EXABF but am working through those slowly.  Haven't deleted him yet but don't have the desire to go backwards anymore and the urge to snoop has subsided alot. Still there once and awhile but not as bad. He is what he is and HP brought us together for a reason, maybe to lead me another way.....who knows.  But what he did brought me here so it can't be all that bad.

I am just feeling very blessed today and wanted to share ti with my MIP family and friends....HP is great:)
thanks for letting me
shelly