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After my Last post, I went to lunch, prob. ate more then I should for it was my Excuse as a Distraction...
Well Phone Rings, and I just figure another one of those "No Work" calls... (Projecting I suppose)...lol
Well it turns out being a lady, prob. in her 50's... She starts going down a list of medical problems, (We are a Heating & Air Conditioning Company)... She starts telling me all her meds. All her problems pretty much...And I was just "Still" and listened to her go on and on and while I am listening to her, and I can hear the tears in her voice, and she was speaking "broken", and Finally I ask...
What is it you would like from me???? She says that she is in a wheel chair, and can not get anyone to come to her home & look at her A/C... "Finally Something I know"... So I ask her the usual, Were are you located, phone #, house #, have we worked for you before, (Which Normally is a Red Flag) and she says NO...
Well Experience told me that no one was coming because she didn't pay... Been doing this awhile... "Again, Projecting"... But I told myself that i was in NO Mood, to be upset, and I had ask God for Strength, and for Help in getting past this thing from the "Mail" earlier... And Maybe... Just Maybe this was IT... Time for me to "Shut Up & Listen...So I Did...
This women told me of ALL the people she called, all the meds, the doctors appt. how she had to get to them, how she didn't have any family to depend on, no close friends, Her Meds. In the Heat Make her Sick, So just her, & an old Trailer... (Again We Don't Service Trailers, 90% of the time we can't get the parts for trailer units)... This Complete Stranger, went on for a good while, just Pouring out her every issue, and here I am thinkin to myself... "Yeah... And I think I Have it Bad! How Rediculous am I Being today?"
So after I listen, and she pauses, I do my best to get her to talk Cry'n long enough for me to say a few words, I tell her I will see what I can do, We only have one Service Guy, others do installs, but I will call him and get back to her... Well I do... He is SWAMPED with Commercial Work He HAS to DO...So My Husband had left 20 minutes before to go to another job, I call him tell him I don't like doing this but this woman needs someone... She is a mess, and you will make her weekend, if you just go... I told him I know it isn't goin to be pretty, only because of all she has told me, but I ask if he would do what he could...
So Luckly he was Near were she lived, He agreed, so I was to call her and tell her he was coming...
Call her back, and she just can not stop again... Oh God Honey BLESS YOU, Please God Bless You, Thank you SOOOO Much, and on and on for about 3-5 minutes... Longest Thank You I think I have EVER recieved...lol... He went, He Fixed, and I feel like I NEEDED that ONE Good Deed, to get me OUT of My Own Way...
To Distract me enough to realize, It can ALWAYS be worse, I Can Always Find something to worry about, but it is only MY Choice... I have to know... When I am Powerless, and Except when some things are just Ment to be...
Mail today was a test... And I'm Coming out of this a winner... Like it or not...I have to believe that I am Right were I am suppose to be... And that HP has a plan for all these little Anxiety's I seem to call life...
Another Hard Lesson that will not Lead me to my Weekend, but will be placed in the "To Do" Box for Monday, and not Worried with till there is time for it... And Frankly.. It isn't today... I will do the best I can, and only the best I can, and today... That aggrivation is not in the Cards... Dealin my own hand for now...
Thanks for listen to me babble... Love & Prayers to all that help me in moments such as these, I am forever grateful for you all ;)
As for the Al-Anon program...it is a 12step progam; not an eleven step one.
Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps we try to carry this message to others and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
Aren't the words so discriptive of the journey..."spiritual awakening" "these steps" "carry this message to others" (It doesn't mention only speak) "PRACTICE THESE PRINCIPLES" in "ALL". The step doesn't even mention alcoholism!!
One 12th done...another coming up. Keep coming back Jozie...good walk.
(((((hugs)))))
Pass a bit of that hug on your A/C fix'n man also. LOL
Just wanted to Thank you ALL for responding, it was a great end to a beautiful Weekend... I am so grateful that i found my way to Al-anon ... It has been a HUGE Blessing getting to know so many wonderful, Caring, Sharing People...
Thank You all for taking the time to respond and and keep me moving forward...