To update everyone, the new friend "M" of the EXABF emailed me today to let me know pretty much that she emailed EXABF last night and told him that she was sorry but wasn't ready to start dating right now and her daughters didn't want her too, and that there was to much drama in his life that she didn't want or need in hers.  (she later apologized to me for putting that in the email as she does not want to tell him what I've told her.  He told her he wanted to talk to her, but she hasn't talked to him yet.  She did tell me that he had told her that her talking to me probally wasn't good and that I would probally say he is not trustworthy.....(funny how that would be the one thing that would come to his mind first)

She told me she would text me when she finally talked to him,and that she was only going to tell him that she wasn't ready to date now and wasnt going to mention drama as she wanted to keep me out of it,  but that she really didn't want involved with him, and was very concerned that he hadn't mentioned his RX drug use of Oxy.  I told her he wouldn't-not til she was in to deep and he couldn't hide it anymore.  She seemed concerned about me which was nice, and thanked me for preventing hurt to her and her daughters by EXABF and I thanked her for her honesty.

It's weird in a way, that I almost feel like I made a new online friend with this single mom that is so much like me.  I'm not certain what will happen, I know he will try to talk her into dating him (I told her he wont give up easy) and he is good and convincing.....I was a WALL when we met and he brought me down.  All I can do is be honest with her and let her and her HP help her do the next right thing.  I don't want EXABF to lead a miserable life I just don't think he should be around someone with children (I know this is me trying to control and protect because of the hurt this man caused my son)

I know that today, so far, I have made it through ok.  I know that the drama this situation has caused is hurting me, but I feel that maybe it might help "M" and her girls in the long run so it will all be worth it, but I know I can't take much more of it too. 

Today is today, and I'm ok. Not perfect by a far cry, not as much of a mess as I was 9mths ago, so I am getting there.....one day at a time.

Love and peace
Shelly