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I went on vacation 2 times in July and it was awsome with out my AH. But when I came home I could smell the beer and cigs on his breath. He asked Did you miss me. He++ no this last time last weekend I went to his family cottage with his dad and step mom. AH made me feel guilty about going to his familys place. I did call them and I said I felt uncomfortable comming up because of what he has said. If they don't want me to come up please tell me. They know about his drinking but they welcomed me open arms. We had so much fun and I went to Lake Superior in WI and I just sat there and could smell the water and listened to the sould of the waves hitting the shore. I even took off my shoes and walked in. SERENITY & PEACE. I took that home and I know I can have it. Now its time for me to get out and feel this all the time. But afarid I can not make the bills on my own. I just have to get past the FEAR. Thanks Family for always being here for me. I put my hand in yours and together we can do what we can not do alone.
Thanks Deb
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I put my hand in yours and together we can do what we could not do alone.
peacewithin wrote:We had so much fun and I went to Lake Superior in WI and I just sat there and could smell the water and listened to the sould of the waves hitting the shore. I even took off my shoes and walked in. SERENITY & PEACE. I took that home and I know I can have it. Now its time for me to get out and feel this all the time.
(((peacewithin))) I can hear the crashing wave hitting the shore and feel the peace and serenity with you, I am taking your hand and we can walk this path of serenity through all the alcoholics antics and imagined crisis. And just rememeber that FEAR is just Courage that has said it's prayers!
I'm walking hand in hand with you on that sandy beach...do not be afraid, my friend.
Overcome
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I can Overcome all things through my HP who strengthens me.
Good for you, Deb, for going on vacation, for enjoying yourself, and for finding that serenity!
I just want to encourage you. I understand the FEAR of which you speak, so very much, and for me, having to face it was no longer a decision but something I just had to do.
Here is what I have discovered over and over again.... as long as I am willing to do what is right and make the effort toward achieving that positive end (whether I really "want" to or not), God (my HP) completely takes care of me and all the details. In terms of taking care of myself, this meant going to work full-time and putting my youngest in daycare, commuting, and working in a setting that I never planned on or thought I could like. Well, my son is happy and loves preschool, he and I enjoy a beautiful 30 min of talking time each morning, and my job blesses me financially and feeds my spirit most days. Its not a perfect situation, but has kept me afloat while I have grappled with where my life is going and what my next steps will be. I have been empowered with the discovery of how much I can take care of myself after a 26 yr relationship and 20 yr marriage. It is amazing, really.
Replacing fear with faith is still a daily decision, and somedays I am not so good at it. But, I know the miracles are out there and happen when the time is right. Having this family of al-anon makes it all a much more comfortable journey.
Yes, we can do this.
Blessings, Lou
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Every new day begins with new possibilities. It's up to us to fill it with the things that move us toward progress and peace. ~ Ronald Reagan~
Sometimes what you want to do has to fail, so you won't ~Marguerite Bro~
I prayed for inner peace most of my life. I just could not understand why I was so unhappy. After therapy for codepedency and ACOA and the 12 step programs, I finally have inner peace most of the time. It feels so good.
In support, Nancy
-- Edited by nmike on Saturday 1st of August 2009 11:43:29 PM
