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Im pleased with the way MOST things have gone this wk. Iv tried hard to look after ME with the help of my HP. last Saturday when my AD told me she was going to end her life i asked you all for help, and with your help i got through it. got up Sunday morning, AD still alive (got her HP to thank for that) still drinking. Made up my mind i was going to have a ME day, packed a picnic and took the dog for long walk and had great day. Sorted the garden out Monday. Tuesday went to my first f2f meeting, was pleased with myself for getting inside the door. was made very welcome and will hav no worries about going again. Wednesday was having a good day, thought my AD had stopped her binge and had phoned to hav a nice chat (HOW WRONG I WAS) i had loads of abuse from her, she took all her anger out on me, i was so hurt by what she was saying. why didnt i put the phone down? don't know all i wanted was nice chat. Thursday got up, felt like s##t but told myself she was not going to mess up my day. Went to work, had good day, went out with friends in the evening. Today my AD is not drinking, shes looking around her flat an seeing what a state her place is in after 2wks drinking. I would normally go down and help her clean it up, not this time, its not my problem. So i think iv not done too bad. Got LONG LONG way togo but will do it, one day at a time. Mary j
Good going MJ...One foot in front of the other. One little step at a time. You're a miracle in progress just like the rest of us. Keep coming back (((((hugs)))))
