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LAZY! I would rather procrastinate than go to my meeting- sleep in, be lazy, surf the web, etc. But that is always a clue that I need to get my butt in gear and get to a meeting. I did not go last week for the very same reason. Geez, what a battle it is sometimes with my own self! UGH! But, Ok, I am going, I got it- thanks for listening...J.
LAZY! I would rather procrastinate than go to my meeting- sleep in, be lazy, surf the web, etc. But that is always a clue that I need to get my butt in gear and get to a meeting. I did not go last week for the very same reason. Geez, what a battle it is sometimes with my own self! UGH! But, Ok, I am going, I got it- thanks for listening...J.
yea, i get that way too.....its like "i didn't do this to me , yet i gotta pay the time"........then i realize that a lot of other survivors dont' even know this program exists and i am grateful that i now have a place to go....sometimes i call a recovery mate and we work program together..........as long as i am fellowshipping w/healthy people and working on me/ steps/ boards/ recovery mates, i am ok...........when i feel myself slipping, going back into bad patterns, then its time for a meet and/or MORE step work........
Geez, I haven't been to a meeting in 2 weeks. Is it any wonder why I feel like I am unraveling? Honestly, I get to a place where I feel like I'm coasting on automatic pilot, all is smooth, all is well. Then I guess my ego wants to take over, believing I can do it on my own... I just don't know how else to explain it. I embrace the meetings, I am totally aware of the transformation in me that occurs there. Still, it can be a chore.
I like what you said Jean,' a battle with my own self', like a battle between the spiritual Me up against my relentless Ego.
I once heard, "If you think you need a meeting, by all means, get to a meeting. If you think you DON'T need a meeting, RUN!!!" hehee
Thanks for posting. I'll be grabbing my chair tonight.
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Jean4444, I didn't get to a f2f meeting this week as well. My daughter had Vacation Bible School all week and it met from 6 to 9 p.m. and my meetings are tues. and Thurs., 7p.m. and 6:30 p.m. respectively, 45 minute drive from here. I also have a 9 a.m. Saturday meeting in another town that I can go to, or Meetings at 6:30 p.m. on Monday, Wed. and Thurs. in this other town. So I am fortunate to have a lot of meetings to chose from normally. Unfortunately all these were out this week because of my daughter's VBS and her supervised visitation with her dad on Saturday from 10:30 till 12:30 in another town, 30 minutes away! I was really bummed this week, but got to some meetings on line and that helped. It is strange how much differently our week goes when we get our Al-anon 'fix'! lol
My sponsor told me she could meet with me today or tomorrow, so maybe that will help, because it has been a tough week for me. Thank God for these rooms!
Yours in recovery, Overcome
-- Edited by Overcome on Sunday 5th of July 2009 08:47:37 AM
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I'm lazy too Jean! And sometimes I just love it. You are rigth, the battle most of the time is with my own self. Thanks for the inspiration. Maybe I'll get off of my lazy butt this morning too!
Good for you for going, Jean, and it will probably be exactly what you need to hear.
I've been off this board and have missed meetings secondary to a glorious vacation, and within 48 hours of being back I found myself spiraling down. As I was up and crying in the middle of the night I realized, "I need Al-Anon"! It is amazing how powerful this program can be.
Blessings, Lou
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So true Jean. I am the same way. I sometimes struggle just to get out of the house and get to a meeting. I need meetings every week or I find myself sinking into all types of negativity. Thanks for sharing.
I understand that feeling, and when it comes I always remind myself of the times I needed a meeting in the worse way. When I walked in the room the first time I was greeted by several members who I found out later had years in the program. I remember the smile on their faces. I felt like they were there for me, to give me their program. As months and years have gone by those same members are still there, for themselves first I'm sure, but also for the newbies like me at that time.
Those members were there for me then, and still are today. So many times now when I have to give myself a pep talk, after I have come up with 10 reasons not to go, I walk in the room and the first think I see is a newbie who like me three years ago needs a meeting in the worse way. I give myself an imaginary "slap" on the face that reminds me I needed to be there for me first, but also for that newbie who needs ESH, and lots of smiling face to greet them as they walk through the doors for the very first time.
I didnt think I'd make my meeting today due to work. I worked my break so I could get away early, done a quick change and dashed off. I too was thinking of giving it a miss, glad I didnt cos it was a great meeting
There where two newbies and they looked the way I did when I made it to my first meeting
I know they got alot from the shares there tonight and I know the warm welcome they received made things so much easier. I'm so glad I went, it felt so good to give back what has been so freely given to me.
Aloha Sister...I relate at times and often with this mindset. I'm not there always to get and also to give. If I get I am grateful...If I give others are.
You got program. You can't keep it unless you give it away.
Thanks for your participation in my recovery. (((((hugs)))))
