I can see the red flags with guy I have been posting about.  I can see all that, but what bothers me is he feeling of rejection I get after I have embarrassed myself by texting him over and over pretending I was stranded- well sort of pretending.  While I know alcohol played a part in my persistence it was more than that.  It's like I get in my head that I want to see someone and regardless of if they have plans I expect them to come see me. That's why I drink on nights like that- to fuel my persistence. It makes me feel rejected that I had to push so hard to get him there. Makes me feel like he didn't really want to come get me, but felt obligated- as we have known each other for years.   Also, I have been reading He's just not that into you and clearly if you ask a man to come meet you and he doesn't he's "just not that into you."  If he was into you he would ask you out on dinner dates and not just meet you out at clubs, etc. Having said that, what bothers me most about the situation is that I seem to have failed again- tried too hard maybe, at least embarrassed myself the other night calling over and over, try to play hard to get, slept with him too soon (?), obsessive thoughts, not the dating kind I guess- more of a good time girl?  Once again,  I did it wrong.  Once again, I wasn't good enough.  Once again, I was rejected.  Just don't know if I will ever get this right.  If I will always lose faith and break my resolve not to lower myself.  If I will never be lovable or find someone who wants me- or enough to show it.  I am afraid I will continue to have these pseudo relationships.  So hard too because he is cute, funny, and a nice guy.  I think it would be easier to break it off if I thought he were crazy about me and I was choosing to walk away than thinking that he rejected me.  Thanks for letting me vent.