The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
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information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Even though I know I am working hard, I am changing the things I can and I am accepting the things I cannot, today has been a really hard day.
Physically pain is not helping from when my legs collapsed from under me late Monday night and I knocked myself out on my kitchen floor.
The fact that I buried a dear dear friend too on Monday after a really dreadful death.
Rawness and reawakenings from her funeral that took me back to my father's recent death late last year, his funeral and the fact that I still have not been told what has happened to his ashes has not helped either.
So I am feeling a little sensitive, a little low, a little distressed now well, I am not surprised and I need to give myself a break. However, please, please family, I hope you do not mind me asking if you could just hold me close and give me a hug, I need it tonight.
Thank you sweet dear caring family.
Suzannah
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
Having gone through the burial recently of not only my father but also my FIL I know all too well the feelings you must be going through. You must be so overwhelmed and exhausted by all that has happened to you.
My gift to you tonight....When you feel the tears coming on or the anger boiling up inside of you, make a very tight fist with one of your hands and hold that fist as long as you need to, that will be me holding your hand.
One thing this program has taught me is that we never have to go through anything alone again. You are part of a HUGE family now that loves and adores you just for who you are.
Personally, I realized that although my Al-Anon program was helping me through this time in my life I also needed more. So I am attending the Grief Recovery Workshop that is offered by Hospice here. Right now I don't know if it will do the trick for me or not but at least I'm doing something physical and mental to get to where I want to be.
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Everything I have ever let go of has claw marks all over it.
I hope you get to feeling better. This would be a wonderful time to put HP in 100% control. Be positive and think positive and good things will happen. Till then, I'm going to do something I have never done. A double hug is the most I have ever given, but for you today you get three hugs.
I'm so sorry for your losses (((((Suzannah))))). There's really nothing I can say to make it go away. I'm glad that you're allowing yourself to feel and walk down that painful road of the loss of a loved one.
Just know that we're here for you and I'll be praying for peace and serenity for you. Be gentle with yourself and continue to allow yourself to feel whatever comes up so you can keep processing through it.
Hang in there and please know that you're loved here.
Redfred
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You can't move forward while you're looking backward
Your in my Loving Prayers tonight, dear friend... Your not alone... I send you prayers that wrap you in warmth, and love and hopes for a peaceful rest that only brings you calm...
Be easy on you... I love & Prayers Friends In Recovery.... Jozie
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