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Firstly I want to give you all a great big ((())) of thanks. Thank you all for being there for me, for your wonderful es&h to my recent posts and to all who post here. I have been in a real low the past couple of weeks and I'm sorry that I have not been able to respond to others, I just felt I had nothing to give. To all those who are so generous with their time and energy I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Today I woke up and felt a little stronger, not brilliant but ok. I said my morning prayers and got up. Despite wanting to sit in a heap I decided to try looking after myself. So I done my breathing exercises and meditation. I didnt reach enlightenment LOL, but it does ease my anxiety and quietens down my racing mind. After this I went out for a run. Something I try and do on a regular basis. I am lucky as although I live in a city there is a beautiful park nearby. As I ran through the park I noticed a very large Chestnut tree so I ran underneath its branches. This tree is amazing, so tall with great big branches, thick with beautiful green leaves. I wish you could all see it. I got to thinking for this massive tree to stand so tall and strong its roots must also be very strong and deep. It struck me right there and then this is how I want to be. I want to be deeply rooted in my self worth and in the knowledge of my HP's love for me. If my roots are solid then nothing can knock me down and lay me low. The visible part of me will be strong healthy and beautiful, firmly anchored in healthy ground.
This has inspired me to keep working my program and keep working on me. I can change and I will get better. It Works if you Work It.
Mariner, what a great share! Thanks for the picture of the large tree! I also find great comfort in the natural world. Its the very best part of my life, I have to say- to live in such a beautiful and interesting world and on such a special planet. Trees, fireflies, weather, clouds, birds, they all just amaze me sometimes. Thanks so much, Jean
I, too, identify with nature, knowing we are connected to all living things. Trees are an amazing teacher to me as well, I love to consider how they stand so strong against the winds (of life) and the depth of their roots, reminding me of my own "grounding." I love how their branches seem to reach out for Higher Power. I love walking through all the "green" at the park, it magically renews my spirit. I love to stop and listen to the small brook that runs through the park, and when I get stressed at work, I like to think of that quiet brook. Going to the park is like picking up a little heaven and taking it with me. PRAISE for the healing power of nature!
Thank you ((((Mariner)))) for the inspiration this morning!
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
I love the analogy of the tree....yea, deep rooted in self love, love w/HP and the program, fellowshipping with the healthy support given here...
LOVELY reading this post to start my day...Gonna go look for a nice tree to admire and give thanks to HP that I can read stuff like what you wrote and think, "yea, there IS a lot of GOOD in this life/people...I just gotta SEE it"...
