Well After last weeks "tail Drag'n"  kinda week, I have put me in an new mode, I went to our camp, weather was beautiful, the river was Way up so I didn't get to swim or kayak, but I was just content Being in the NOW... My boy road his 4wheeler, and the husband tinkered around doing little things, and I cleaned my camper, and did some soul searching...

I also took the time to sit down and do my first Poem... When Brave enough I will share it will all of you for some of it sounds cheezie, but I was quite happy that I could put one together...lol... I think I would have to Thank "Dave" for that, since I have been reading his book, "Damaged Merchandise", (Sorry Dave, I am very slow for I don't want to miss nothing:) In his book he has MANY poems and I thought if he could sit and write 100's of them, maybe I could try my hand at one...

Of course it was about my Afather that has past, and even my son was quite impressed, However he is 11...lol.. But All and all it was a wonderful weekend... I came home Sunday night, and went to my F2F meeting, there is usually only a hand full of us, and that is kinda nice for everyone has a chance to share...Last night there was a new lady, her husband is a recovering A, and hadn't drank since 99, but has since slipped twice that she knows of... and that is what got her to al-anon...All she could do last night was cry while she sat there, but I soooo remember the feeling I had at my first meeting, and the overwhelming reality that these things were really going on in my life... She told me she would see me next week, so I hope that even with our little group, she took something away from it, and didn't feel so alone...

I often worry what will happen to our little group for it is currantly in our local hospital, but it will be moving soon, so I don't know were we will end up, or if they will make room in the new one... But Boy I have been prayin they do... I never thought I could NEED something so bad, as I do those F2F's... There are other ones in our area, but one don't work with my summer schedule, and the other is thru the work day, so crossing my fingers they make room for us in the new one... ;)

I think I am climbing the hurtle to recovery...Slowly for sure, but I have a dear friend that has helped me thru alot, and she continues to guide me, to a better me... I am just so grateful for Al-anon and ALL of its components, I just don't know how to explain... To all that is new, please keep coming back... This program if worked will Find you inner peace if you give it a try...

Thanks for letting me share, and for helping be become a Better Me :)
Love & Prayers to all
Jozie