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Things just don't want to look up for me right now. I have been trying to just go day to day, hour by hour if I had to. Some days seemed better than others. Now, I found out that I may not be employed much longer if things do not pick up. I have some possible things I could fall back on but nothing for sure. I guess I am going to have to start hitting the pavement just in case, to find something to hold me over. I thought that the tests I was given in class were hard....they seem like nothing compared to all of this. I keep trying. As hard as it is, I keep fighting to get by, but things are just continuing to go downhill. I don't think that I have felt this broken down before....
Well you have talent, a great work ethic and are well educated. There isn't an employer who wouldn't want you on their staff. Of that I'm 150% positive. Try and think outside the box. Hopefully you'll still have your job. You're a strong person and I have great faith in you.
I know it seems like everything just keeps getting worse. But you've been through so much and come out the other end. I'm very proud of you and you have taught me so much about recovery. Pipers and I will be sending you extra love and prayers.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
I've been having to practice what I preach lately myself.
I've had to remind myself that my ego/mind is not in charge and fight the thoughts it creates. I have to redirect and listen to source/my spirit.
I have to arrange the things that come my way and respond accordingly. I also remind myself that the energy and thoughts I create and send out come back to me in some way. I got too busy and distracted and I focused on all the downer things that are happening and they just kept on coming.
Today, I am going to find a peaceful place and sit with source energy until my head and heart is in alignment. My loved ones and their needs will survive it without me. I will concentrate on the bird songs and how wonderful the sun feels. I will return to rediscovering a habit of passion for life and appreciation. Funny how if I don't stay in my personal "now" how things spin out of control and I lose focus without even being aware.
Christy
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If we think that miracles are normal, we will expect them. And expecting a miracle is the surest way to get one.
things are challengingall over w/ the economy shifting as it is... it's really intelligent to seek out other opportunities right now, to see what's out there, u just never know what can turn up unexpetedly. Try to not focus on the perceived neg that happens, just try to be open minded. This is what I work on b/c I know if I focus on what I think will happen... I'm only feeding into it, when I really want to be open to unlimited possibilites, so I try not to let my past dictate my future.
The thing about being broken down, means now you can be built up. Some really great things have happened to me right after some of the most tragic things.
I keep reminding myself that I don't know what will happen but I'm willing to be peaceful and happy & turn over the negative junk (anxiety, worry, dread) & see the whatever I can to be grateful for. The more I can focus on gratitude, the more I can experience it & things seem better just b/c of my attitude/perception.
May love & hope fill you up and hp's understanding, love & strength protect you. Prayers & empathy to you. (((((((((((((( sk ))))))))))))))
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
I found it very very hard going when I was first in program. I had to really work on those tools in order to get some relief. I also saw a lot of relief from being vulnerable and admiitting the truth.
I feel for you in this economy. I know it is very very difficult to find anything. I hope you will get some support and understanding around that issue rather than personalize it.
I want to tell you I have felt like you do. Shaking head. No home, very little food as I fed my animals. Went down 3 sizes from starving.
Would have to go to A who would give me $20 bucks when thousands of my money went to his brain surgery and HIS stupid taxes.
In time I really realized this,if I was going to lose my home and have to go live in the woods, then I would. I put it in HP's hands. Finally accepting I did my best and that was all I could do. That whatever came I would get thru it becuz I would.
My stomach stopped hurting. I felt better than I ever had when I finally gave it all to HP. Still do. In a way it is like a challenge,maybe even scarey but yet a challenge that means things may change and I will be part of that.
Yes the economy is in trouble. Yes the world is in BIG trouble. Talking the world meaning people,governments, the world of what is on it except for the earth,
Being a JW I honestly know what is going on. But of course I do not witness here. I only reflect my beliefs in how I live and how I act when I am here.
Anyway I do believe things will counter to help. Hopefully some will help each other. I fully plan that if people can only find a little work doing odd jobs, mechanic, someone can sew,Someone can fish,garden, do simple animal surgery, fix things, wood workers, plumbers,whatever that My home will have a few families and single people in it. Even if we have to fix the bunkhouse back up and they can use the master br.
During the depression there were some alternatives. Maybe not so bad either. People should be helping each other!
It may be that money is useless but skills, having gas, etc. trading may be what is next. I don't know.
Hon you are not alone. Sometimes it helps to just do what you said, just go out and see what is available and think about what you could do. Rent a room? Share an apt. Make little private areas so people have privacy where they sleep.
uno? If people have acreage, and can keep it, I could see putting up little one room huts. Make them warm,wood stove to cook on, uno?
HEY NO one is eating my pigs or chickens either!!!!!!!! (c:<
I tell myself everything is ok all the time over and over. And it is.
My bro gets real negative as he is a nartural Economic person . I say to him T I have no control over that, it may happen or it may not. I just take each day and do it.
I look at the fact I have a home today. I have the mountains,sky and loved ones. I know what my future is. I know what is coming and I know it will be pretty awesome and maybe somewhat scary as it does. Even now it is hard on everyone! Even rich people.
Gads what a blabber mouth! All I know is you will be ok because you don't give up!
Plus I have an extra room for ya! Just tell the dog to move over! (o: love,debilyn
Future tripping does not get me where I want to be. I have to stay in the now. For this moment you have a job. You also have a heads up that there may be a change coming. Change is really, really uncomfortable for most of us affected by this disease, but change can be good. We do not know what will happen tommorrow, but I find that when I stress about what 'could' happen tommorrow, things tend to not go as well as when I try to look at tommorrows changes as opportunities.
I know one thing that my recovery program has taught me. When I am really uncomfortable and frightened, that's when I am growing. Growth hurts a bit, sometimes, but if I keep looking for the lessons, think outside my small, cramped, diseased box, and try to feel for my HP's guidance, I end up better off in some way than when I started.
In recovery,
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
How profound an experience that you can come here with a ligitimate concern and fear and find the support that was offered. Experienced professors of serenity from the membership. You get to take what you liked and apply it to the degree you care to and leave or save the rest for later or never. I am inspired by this membership!! Metaphorically I remember my near "dowing" lessons in youth. "Kicking harder and stroking more" would lead to failure. The best "to do" was to "Stop Kicking (SK), roll over on my back, take a deep breath of air into my lungs and rise to the top. I remember that when I did that and in that position I could then look straight up and find the source of help and freedom from the fear that gripped me. It has never failed nor has the support I have always received in this program.
I read the feedback from these "Sisters in recovery" and each one becomes a bouyancy compensator...Life ring.
I know if I focus on what I think will happen... I'm only feeding into it, when I really want to be open to unlimited possibilites, so I try not to let my past dictate my future.
turn over the negative junk (anxiety, worry, dread) & see the whatever I can to be grateful for. The more I can focus on gratitude, the more I can experience it & things seem better just b/c of my attitude/perception.
i can relate...been in your shoes.....I notice for me when I do my best and surrender the rest, stuff works out ok...yea, its tough, but HP always comes through.....i like what kitty said here.....i filter out the negative.....and work my gratitude list...the more i am grateful, the more i have to be grateful for......i quit fighting and fretting and talk w/my HP and do my gratitude list
also i do visualizations....thanking HP for prayers not yet answered...I visualize the thing i need already come to me...i see it in my visualizations..i taste it...smell it....see my loved ones celebrating with me...its like i am in this movie, and i am really experiencing with all my senses what i need that has already come to me..
Hi Stillkickin, When ya feel broken down like you do, that's when HP is holding you up, close to himself. Even tho it doesn't feel like it, and doesn't look like it, HP is. You have had a boatload come your way in a short time , that's for sure! Who's with you in the boat? Lots of situations that seem like Giants. Are the Giants too big to fight, or too big to miss? How many of them will serve you well, when you achieve the career field you're headed for? Many will be "the voice of experience" to others who need your help. And I know you'll be well able to help them too!!! You ARE young, but so was King David. He slayed his Giants and you will too, and then be well able to serve, protect, and defend! Luv ya , Joni
