The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
...sometimes I find I DO NEED to look back, 'cos it is when I look at how far I have travelled from that dark and lonely, miserable life I used to EXIST IN that I see the light and lovely, joyful life I now LIVE.
However, I never look back to DWELL on what was or what if or what might have been, I look back to see the changes I have CHOSEN for myself and made in me; and what'smore I am so happy I can look back for I see the journey which makes my life the life I have today.
No doubt I will meet other challenges, and I will feel I am trying to climb Mount Everest when I only have the strength, the stamina and the equipment to climb the next hill however, I have travelled far enough now to realise that other travellers along my route often have the missing piece of equipment that I need and even offer a helping hand to get me past the obstacle that is impedeing my way.
This family does just that too.
I forge my way ahead and then I stop a while and rest...and when I am resting I start to wonder, and think and see others who, like me need a helping hand and it is then that I realise that I am in a position to extend my hand knowing that I have tools and equipment that I can share with others too. The most important of all being HOPE. I have HOPE and I know there is HOPE out there, even in the darkest and most dire of times, and there is a better way of living and choices that are more healthy to make than others and I know only too well that even when we visibly are seen as being alone, we NEVER are alone. God is travelling with us and providing in such amazing ways, and those ways are often in the people that we meet with and share with and are travelling paths much like our own.
I think I will always look back with gratitude, with joy and with hope for others now as I have journeyed and received these precious gifts from so many I have met and journeyed with too and still journey with.
Today, I am giving thanks for the roads I have travelled for they are what have made me who I am today.
God grant me the Serenity...well He certainly has and long may it live in my heart and mind.
Suzannah
-- Edited by Suzannah on Wednesday 3rd of June 2009 08:10:05 AM
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
