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Today I was reading in my LoLG Daily reader... and remembered that after all the excitement yesterday.. That was one reader I never got to read... So I back stepped to yesterday, and knew I had to miss something good :)
The Prayer for Yesterday was: God...Help Me Fully Embrace & finish My Endings, So I May Be Ready for My New Beginnings!....
Well I think it Hit that Nail on the head, and HP def. seen me thru the storm of my Deseased Afathers "Endings" Yesterday, and opened up a whole New world for Me and "MY New Beginnings!" ...
Kinda Funny how things happen.. This morning I felt Off, unsure of emotions, unclear of what to do next really... ... Even after Reading all my morning readers I just didn't feel like i was "taking" anything from them, and just went to work... So as the clock slowly waund momemt to moment, I thru in One more Effort, and here it was "Yesterdays" reading that I missed, that I needed to hear...
I am guessing that is HP way of saying... Don't forget were you left Off! :) Which I hope to carry with me thru out this up coming Holiday Weekend, were it is Family and Friends, and Don't care to forget "were I left off" when dealing with my ASister and her constant "Need" for drama... But I plan on in those moments, grabbing me a book, and leave'n her to her own HP... And Me To Mine...
I have "Mentioned" my Al-anon family to her, and all she can say is! O'Yeah!!! (Not very enthused at All), and that is fine!!! So I don't bring it up, but she is Very Cold Hearted and Seems to Feel Everyone Should Only Agree With Her, Because "She is Who she is" and for some reason in her mind..That makes her special...
Nothing in our lives has EVER put her on a petistal so maybe this is her own "Survior Guide" to how she gets by... I don't know... I just know that I can only handle her in small doses, since i started to look with in myself, and I am going to do my best, to make those "doses" even fewer if she intends to steal my excitement over my (6 Months) of accomplishment... For I will have a book in each pocket, and be paging that index :) Living in the One Moment At A Time :)
For I intend to: Fully Embrace & finish My Endings, So I May Be Ready for My New Beginnings!....
Thanks soooo Much and I am always thrilled to hear how you are as well... Love, Hugs, and Prayers to you all, and may you all have a Safe, Wonderful Holiday Weekend... Can't wait to get back Mon. and See how you all made out :)
Oh yea!! The old unfinished business thing....Dispense with the old and *done with* b4 I can reach out for and open up to my HP's good plan for my life from here on in...
my *ending* was to make the *decision* to give up any hate and resentment towards my male parent....I am ready for my life to move on in a good direction
