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I have been thinking about how vicitmizing English can be at times or maybe it's our society, idk. You know how we say, "youre giving me a headache" or "this is a pain in my neck" or "look how you made me feel!"
It is funny how we throw our energy away & leave ourselves to be at the mercy of others. Of course, no one can "make us feel" any sort of way but this is how we speak. Our feelings are ours. We may be reacting but still it is our emotion to deal with. I have to face that I have reactions & it lies with me. It is my reaction, my emotion.
I am working hard to be autonomous, to be my own free self & to own my feelings. Saying, "youre getting to me" is a cop out & as long as I do this, I am perpetuating my victim-hood. As long as I deal with my feelings as autonomous events, I feel more powerful. Even just putting awareness on a thing helps you gain perspective over it.
Today I will own all of my emotions & know them for what they are. My only job is to deal with *me* & for this I am eternally grateful. When I react to something, I try to look at it for what it really is ~ more or less, get out of my ego.
Just something I've been thinking about lately & working on.
Yes, this is my goal emotionally. I'm doing pretty well with it & nothing is testing me right now, so I'm trying to get a little deeper, so I will be ready next time I am tested, I hope I can stay un-enmeshed & detached & remembering to keep issues out of the ego & in perspective. Ahh, my ego sure gets it's horns up some days! LOL, easier said then done.
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
Great post. It's very easy to say YOU are MAKING me .... but it takes courage to accept the responsability for our own emotions, and in my case reactions.
I join you today in the task of owning my own emotions
(((kitty)))
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Self-pity in its early stages is as snug as a feather mattress. Only when it hardens does it become uncomfortable.
That is sooo true....I am taking my power back each day as I work my program and take CARE of ME!!!!
Getting these phone calls, every day..solicitors wanting to sell drugs...I tell them to stop..they call more..Then threaten me when I threaten to turn them in..
Today, i am waiting for the Police to call me so I can file a report...Then its on to Verizon to file a complaint against them.....Not gonna let it upset me...Just gonna SHUT THEM DOWN and walk away with my head held high......If gov't and phone co. does not do it??? My answer machine will....NO calls answered unless it is identifyable....They will get tired of that for sure...I set up VM to say "attention solicitors and unidentifiable phone callers...I WILL NOT TAKE YOUR CALL.....Hang up now!!!!! All others leave message"....That should get rid of them..
NOONE is gonna make me sick....I am taking care of me and doing what I have to do to have my serenity.....I feel good reporting them to the cops...and then its phone co....No matter what....I took care of me instead of fretting and stewing...
I am taking responsibility for me and my care and safety with HP's help.....
Great Post... Yes Ego is a big one for me as well.. :) Sometimes I have to know what to just "Stop Talking" and leave the Rest to God... I am slowly learning for me Silence is Golden... It seems to be alot quieter at my place since i have been resting my Ego :)
I still have my moments were autonomous seems a long way off, but I am still climb'n that Mountain, and I know at some point, I will have to reach the top :)
Good For you :) Keep Up the Good Work :) One Day At A Time :) Friends In Recovery Jozie
you're driving me crazy, come out of my mouth about a half dozen times to a variety of people... every day! i never looked at it that way. Really, I'm driving myself crazy by not finding a different response to whatever that crazy situation is... Daily, I am stopping myself and saying. ok, how can I change this situation so I don't feel like I'm going crazy. It's usually in relation to my little ones, maybe, just maybe if I stop letting myself go crazy from their little actions, they will live in a healthier atmosphere too!
