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I made it!! He left for work early so I started packing up he came home for a minute to get something and I just said I will be out by tonight. He didn'ts ay anything just left. Then 2 hours later we had the first truck loaded up. My friends brother calls and said he did something to the propane tank in the garage my stuff was going to be at and it blew up. I just sat and kept thinking like why is this happening, god must not want me to leave. i didn't do anything just sat there. Since he is only 16 my friend left to go see what happened because he said it started neighbors car on fire and cops were there and their parents were gone.
It was a lie. No fire, no explosion.. he was just messing with us because we asked him to sweep it out and he didn't want to.
Then after the truck was loaded with all my big stuff cops come pulling up. I took a deep breath and walked out to talk to them. They said Jermaine had called and is leaving work because he is worried about his property. Next Jermaine pulls up and first thing he said to the cops was can't you make her stay she is on the lease. The cop looked at him and said no she can leave if she wants. You can take her to court. He never said anything directly to me.
He was in our bedroom talking to cop and the other cop asked me to go in there and Jermaine was asking about taking our son and the cop told him that no he can't. In MN mothers have sole whatever custody and he has to take me to court. He tried to keep the crib and the cop said anything pertaining to the kids she can take and you can not dispute.
He tried saying my computer and tv were his. Cops said if he disputes something it stays in apartment till we go to court. So I looked at the officer and said well I don't have to leave right? He said no so I said fine everybody unload the truck and bring everything back in if I can't take whats mine I am not leaving. So jermaine just looked me and said fine take whatever you want.
So then he asked the cop if they would make me tell him where I am tkaing my son. The cop said we can't make her tell you. So I looked at the cop and said to a safe healthy place where there isn't someone passing out all the time from being drunk.
After that he decided to go back to work or wherever. But he took my damn car seat for the baby. I had the neighbors watching the baby while I was moving and as soon as Jermaine pulled up I had a friend go get him well neighbor wouldn't give him to her. So I had another neighbor go get him she was taking too long so I went to get him. And I guess they were on jermaine's side and didn't want me to take him they were going to give him to Jermaine. They weren't going to open door for me but the neighbor did and I grabbed my son and left. I had no clue I thought they just weren't going to give them to someone other than me, but no they were holding him for jermaine but had no choice but to give him to me. So after all that these people came to my apartment and just stood in door way. I looked at the cop and said can you please ask them to leave. I think she was in shock I knew what was going on and she left. She did say something about how he loved me with all his heart and didn't want me to leave so was going to make it harder for me and that's why he called the cops and what not.
Anyways I know God was with my the whole day. It didn't start raining till the very end when we were just moving a couple boxes and it was just sprinkling.
I don't have internet where I am staying, but my mom is looking into getting it hooked up and paying first bill for me. So for now I will try to stay in touch every few days when I get a chance!
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"Live in such a way that you would not be ashamed to sell your parrot to the town gossip." Will Rogers
I feel quilty for even complaining about my situation. What a mess they do get us into.. All that love wasted because they cant see past the bottle...what a shame...Hugs Lilly....
So glad you had the strength to do what you did... It took great pains I am sure, but you came thru it like a trooper and should pat yourself on the back for how you handle it :)
I don't know if I could have been as calm.. As for the rain... Maybe HP knew you needed a break :) After all everything happen for a reason, and maybe that was your cue that you had done enough that day :)
Be Proud that you put you and your baby first... That is the main thing... Things I am sure will be tough for a while, but... YOU GOT THIS :) One Day At A Time :) Or Like me One Moment :) Hang in there Girl, and if you can find a F2F close to your new place, I would be looking into get'n into that room... They will support you in your time of need, when you can't get to your computer :)
We can't outdistance HP...You will do what you think is right for the moment and AP will also although both decisions will seem like polar opposites. One thing you do agree on is the value of your child to yourselves. I've been there and done that Mel...It was hard...almost impossible to bring it to an end because my pride and my ego was so deeply involved. I will not predict the future for you and your partner because you are here working with recovering people and learning a new way of living. I can tell you for me that until I did that myself, got into program and worked program I (we...ex and I and children) kept getting the same old stuff over and over and over again. I had to stop and surrender to my HP and check in with HP and the program before I reacted to anything. I never knew my HP's will for me until I got quiet and still and deeply listened.
(((((Melissa, Jermaine and child)))))
-- Edited by Jerry F on Wednesday 13th of May 2009 06:45:52 PM
-- Edited by Jerry F on Wednesday 13th of May 2009 06:46:36 PM
Melissa, I 'm so proud and happy for you. Your hard work and courage paid off; you are amazing. Stay well and safe and will look forward to hearing from you. You had such presence of mind during your ordeal. Wow.
Well done, with dignity and grace - you didn't get into any shouting matches, you didn't let yourself get bullied into saying where you were going, you were civil with the cops and - whaddaya know - they were on your side. You might get a letdown after the high of all that - if that happens, know it's normal, & not anything you're doing wrong. You deserve to feel very proud for taking your life & your baby's life back into your own hands. I hope you find an f2f meeting to make a regular part of your new life.
And I hope you keep coming back here too 'coz we want to know how you're doing!
