at present I am battling with myself to make right choice, to control my own journey and to stop creating situations which are not beneficial. I find that I go through these crazy infatuations where I create a fantasy land. I have to stop myself on this one as reality is where I want to be. I think now because I did not know what normal was as a child, I crave abnormal as this is the only normal I know. Though I'm working hard at knowing and recognising reality, times are tough sometimes and it frightens me how close I come to ignoring red flags especially with unsuitable men. I am avoiding a certain situation at present as its just not healthy and this makes me doubt if I will ever recognise and value healthy situations. I know this board is a huge help to me and all your posts make such sense so for that I am truly grateful.

I faced situation with son and he is now on daily report where the teachers sign off on his behaviour and then I sign the sheet, It is a day  by day thing and he is trying, as we all are, I have asked them to keep him on report until the end of the school year as I feel we all need work on this and that this day to day steps are such a help rather than just expecting things to improve dramatically. The teachers have been great and have really shown a lot of concern. It was a situation where I was extremely negative but instead of the blame game, I substituted same with a gratitude list and the improvement in how I have dealt with this is great.